- if only

I am not okay.

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

It's already 2008, there are lots of things to be happy about. Yeah, there are lots but why I'm still acting this way? I feel like I'm lost, empty or whatever you call it. This past few weeks I'm looking for someone whom I can tell what I am feeling right now. Someone who has this very broad mind to understand me 'cause I know you need a lot of understanding when you hear all my whinnings. Unfortunately, there's none. No one seems like to listen to me, understand me. There's no need to pity me, just UNDERSTANDING and EARS are all I need :)

You know what? The PROBLEM IS ME. That's it. I don't blame anyone why I'm feeling this way. It is me who wants to feel it. It is me who wants to be hurt all the time. It is me who wants to make my world be crazy like this. Oh yes, pathetic me. Who says I'm okay? A bit, maybe.

I told God that I want everything to be alright as new year comes, maybe in His little ways it'll be. But one step at a time. Maybe He wants me to be okay, but not just with one snap of my finger. Little by little, instead.

Just want to let these feelings out.

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WELL DONE IS MUCH BETTER THAN WELL SAID..

There will always be reasons to become sad, but there will never be reasons to stay sad. Life itself is already dramatic.

@ 2:05 AM