scream it sweetie.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
I want to TRAVEL. I'm serious! I want to travel around the world. I guess if I have so much money or if I'm rich, I could go wherever I want. I want to breathe, to think some things, to meet new people, new culture, new thoughts, new inspiration, etc. Haha:D I loved to travel but unfortunately, I don't have enough money to support that, or should I say "we" don't have enough money. Well, that's life. Maybe if i'll strive hard to my study and finish it, and pursue a career that I wanted to be, well maybe, just maybe I could do what I really wanted :) Goodluck to me.ü
I miss my friends (lahat sila ^^,) I miss bumming around with them. I wanna see Bry and Yna. Haha;D why oh why? Well, I miss goofing around with them, and telling some dramas. Tee-hee! Ack! Haha:D sana matuloy ang date nating tatlo. I miss HAWHAW cos we're missing to go shopping! Stress-free yun pare. :)
Grrrr! My angsty side are coming out again. Haha;D I'm loving to rock out again! Yeah, rock and roll. Haha:D trip? Ewan. I feel light and happy whenever I sing and scream with it. Whoa! Frustrated vox. Haha;D get lost. Yeah yeah yeah, whatever :)Guess what? I'm smiling again ^_____^ can't you see? Can't you feel it? See it. Feel it. LOLXD Maybe because of what God did last night. Owell, it's a sad one (to think of) but then again made me light and made me breathe again :) thanks for that person cos you let me know what I really wanna hear. Thank you so much! You know who you are already. ^__^
Off to Manila tomorrow! Muah!
-xXxXx-
"Masasabi mong masaya ka kapag kuntento ka na sa lahat..."
-Angel (friend of mine)
Labels: travel
@ 9:00 PM
experiences to lesson :)
Friday, April 27, 2007
Last year (2006) November, a week before my birthday someone's call me over the phone and guess what he said? He says "sorry" to me for the bad things that he'd done to me before. And hearing that sorry and the voice too, made me feel great cos I didn't expect for him to call me and say sorry. Well, that guy became a part of my life and I thanked him a lot cos he made me a better person right now. After all the pain, lies, infidelities, etc. He had this guts to feel sorry and explain everything to me, and as my part I forgive him whole-heartedly :) Maybe not because of the things (most of them are bad anyway :P) that he'd done to me, I won't be strong as I am right now.. Honestly, with that experience I kinda know now how to deal with some petty things and made me not to give up on it easily. And I only realized it a while ago that I should thank him for that --- for everything. :)
Sometimes, people who treat us bad and hurt us so much are sometimes who'll make us a better person. And we only realized it when we already over with it and learn so much from it. We should thank them for treating us that way cos of that they let us grow :) and the experiences that we had with them, teaches us a lesson :) And most of all, we should thank God for letting us meet those person and took them in our lives cos we know that God has a better plan for us :)
-xXxXx-
"GOD's will is better than our own ways, and GOD's plan is better than our own dreams.."Labels: purpose
@ 3:00 PM
Why?
Thursday, April 26, 2007
It's my Lola's Birthday today! Yey! Happy Birthday Nanay! We misses you so much and we love you! :) Mwuah! Wish you, wish you, wsh you more life to come and we kow that you're still counting on it. Awww. :)
So there, yesterday night I was texting with Bry and he told me he wants to go in a relaxing place and he don't know if he wants with a companion or none. Since, I want to go in a relaxing place too, to think over some situations that happened, I told him that I wanted to go with him (If he wanted too). He wanted to go at Baywalk cos of the ambiance (ata? :P), and of course the oceanary place. Tsk, it seems like he wants to have some emotional scene there. Haha:D just kidding. Kidding aside, I wanted to go there too but I don't know how will I get there. Haha:D I prefer him to go to EcoPark or in Wildlife since it's a nearby place than going over to Manila right? Well, whatever decision he wants, wala na ako doon. Haha:D I gave him an option to go to Intramuros. He wanted to go there too but again, HE DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET THERE. Tee-hee dude! Haha;D So we decided to go there and I asked him if we could go with Yna since we both misses that angsty-innocent girl. LOL XD he then said YES. Yipee! I'm excited to be with them again and have some serious talk! Wow, SERIOUS talk :) enough of that serious talk anyway.
I'm having fun yesterday night texting with some of my high school pals. It was like a reunion texting galore to us cos "Hey, they're too active sending love quotes.. and doing some GMs :)" Speaking of quotes, all of those are meant for me. Haha;D I don't know if they did it as a sadya one or wala lang :) Well, I love the scar-about quotes. Haha;D it says that "The bigger of the scar you had in your heart, the more TANGA you are!". Boom! Hahaha:D it's a funny one though :) they don't mean anything to it anyway.ü
-xXxXx-
"Why"
Avril Lavigne
Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe
I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you,
I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you,
I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why
Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
Have you ever felt of waking up everyday and have this feeling of pain cos of the things that happens ini your past or what? Well, if you do, I felt that too. Haha;D wala lang. Natanong lang. Hehe:P Ack! There's a lot of questions are bugging me. But most of those questions start with the word "WHY?". Why anyway? Geee! I know that my questions will be answered by the right time, right moment, and right reason. Oh well, I hope it will. Manalig ka lang Sci. Things will be better. Just have faith to God. Just don't rush things out. Take it nice and slow baby! :D
There's something that get on my nerve. Hehe:P just let me be this way -- for now folks. Haha:D tah-tuh.
@ 1:35 PM
Wish
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Be careful on what you wish for.. Ack! That's what the topic for yesterday! Wish, wish, wish! It's all about wish! Now it came true, what's next? Aww. Just be careful on the things you might wish for, cos you'll never know what's gonna happen if that wish came true. Think over it. Be contented, try to be contented.. :)
xXxXx
I'm still here, alive. Still loving and caring in silence. Expecting for some things to happen. Yeah, I know it's not easy but I'm trying. I know I'll get over it but the question is when? It hurts. It really hurts. I'm still here, caring for you, waiting for you.. I know I deserve some explanations for the things that happened already. This is the verdict of reality.
xXxXx
Smiling is better than explaining why you're sad...
Labels: wish
@ 12:58 AM
I can't help it.
Monday, April 23, 2007
I don't know how will I start this entry. How will I let my feelings out. I'm in so much hurt and pain right now, I don't know if I can still bear and be over it. I know it's the same old song but once you feel this feeling, you'll say to yourself that "Wow, it felt like a first time.."
You love someone so much and you'll see that someone as an everything to you. The reason why you exist and the reason of starting your day. It feels so great experiencing the "falling in love" thingy, but then it feels so bad having a feeling of pain and hatred cos of falling in love.
It's not that easy to let go of your feelings to someone and pretending that you can let it go because it's killing you somehow. The sad thing about love is that it's when you happen to know that there's just no hope for you being together yet you still pray to make it work.. It's when your mind says let go but your heart says hold on. It's when you dream of that person almost every night only to wake up in the morning with tears in your eyes. And most of all its when no matter how you try to forget that person you just can't, cos of the fact that you love that person and you just don't know why..
Call me bitter or what, I don't care cos it's true. I hate myself right now cos I hurt again someone I love, someone who means a lot to me. If he'll just know how much I love him and how sorry am I for hurting him.. If he gets to read this, please don't be mad at me. I love you so much! I'm sorry for everything.. Oh God, please do help me to get over this pain. I know you had a reason why you allow this thing to happen. Please, give me so much strength to face this. help me to be brave enough. And let him know how much I love and appreciate him for coming into my life :(Labels: pain
@ 4:35 PM
sweet escape
Friday, April 20, 2007
"If you're not afraid Of what love brings, then endings are beginnings Of beautiful things. Its a chance you'll take, It's a chance you'll win. If someone's gonna find you, First you gotta let them in Coz love begins with one hello ..The hardest part is over, Now its easy letting go, One hello is how it starts, You might win it all or lose your heart.."-One hello, Randy Crawford
A while ago, I listened to Joe D' Mango's show in Wave 89.1 which is Love Notes. Joe said that it takes two for a relationship to work. He also said that "not all unconditional love is supposed to be meant like forever. The person who experience the unconditional love might get tired and burned out also cos of the pain that he feel and the realization of being taken for granted."
People get sick and tired of the things that he/she always experience. Even though he/she loves a person so much that if he/she thinks that the love that he/she had for that person causing him/her so much pain and being taken for granted, sooner or later that person might get tired of everything and will realized that he/she don't deserve that kind of treatment and love.
The point here is, be thankful that God gives you someone who'll love you. Even if you don't love that person, you should tell that person about your feelings. Be true to him/her though it really hurts. As the maxim goes, Reality Bites." If you're a someone who experience the unconditional love, don't think that love doesn't love you at all, it's just that it lets you know that you deserve someone better. And if the two of you love each other but then one leaves, don't be bitter about it, cos love has its own season, time and reason for coming and going. :)
God only knows who you deserve and who will be deserving of you. Just put a smile on your face always. The ending is always a beginning.
-xXxXx-
I love Gwen Stefani's new song "Sweet escape" cos it makes me groove when I always hear it :) Anyway, I and Red met up yesterday (April 19). He accompanied me at School to check my grades, but suddenly Milet told me that the grades is on the process of whatever it is and I can see them by next week. So okay. :) after there, we went at Sm north to mall around and we planned to watch a movie, but when we saw how much the movie is we didn't watch any movie there. Haha:D ginto masayado ang presyo sweetie :p I'm not kidding :) kung alam ko lang. Hehe:P but I enjoy being with him, hope he does too. So there, Silent Sanctuary had this Mall tour at Sm, so we accidentally watched it :p and their front act is Itchyworm whom I always like and love. Haha:D they are cool. I love their songs :) Ghert and his boyfriend (Domz) was there too at the mall, so we met up and talk for a while then separate ways again :p
I and Red had this long walk again that made my feet aches (not actually) cos we're going to print up our pics. Ay, ako lang pala ang may gusto. Haha:D So there. I miss him already kahit na naiinis ako sakanya minsan at siya ganoon din sa akin. Hehehe:P I love you my love. Mwuaah!
I'm sleepy folks. I wanna have some rest and sleep too :( but I can't. Anyway, got to go. I'm going to do something. Tah-tuh ^__^
Labels: love. mall.
@ 1:54 PM
it's so nice to loved and be loved and be happy :)
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Darn! The weather this past days and today is darn hot! Ack! I hate it. I can't stand the heat baby! I wanna go somewhere where I can rest and feel chill at the same time. How I wish it'll happen. Anyway, yesterday wa Ninya's celebration of her late (super-late) birthday! Haha:D we are just few friends of her there including especially the Chi-Chi Fam and Lunchmates! Great! I super duper miss the close friend of mine! Waaahh! I went there with Red, I just want them to meet that man. Hehe:P it was first time for me to introduce a guy of mine to them (that set of friends) though they always tease me cos I have this super duper dami boys (daw?) before! Before yun ok? Haha:D I changed! :)
So there, before I and Red went to Ninya's house, we went for a while at Sm to buy some mags and of course ang frustrate-frustration ko, FLIPFLOPS. Haha:D I just love to buy that slipper! Weee! I love the color. It's brown ^___^ Banana Peel is affordable than Havaianas! Wow! Edorsement mode :)
I had fun yesterday cos I was able to meet my long time no see close friends of mine. We talk some chikas. Haha:D we had fun makin out of joke to Pets. Weee! Don't worry sweetie, we love you of course, we're just makin fun out of you! :P
After then, I and Red went to Mcdo. Nagugutom ulit ako eh! :) and then make somoe kwentuhan. Ayun. After there, we had this long night walks. Wow! I love that moment. Weeeeee! I miss him so much! :) Anyway, I love my outfit yesterday. Hehehe:P so there..
I'm happy yesterday. Super happy :) hindi lang siya halata. Hahaha;D Hay! I love the people around me. I love him. I love my friends. I love God. I love my family. I love you more guys :P
Ack! I think I'm having this cough! :( I don't want to have this. I'ts kind of annoying anyway. :(
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@ 3:40 PM
unpredictable.
Monday, April 16, 2007
I'm being so unpredictable this past few days. And I don't know too the reasons why! Well, maybe let's just be that way! Ack! I don't wanna be sad anymore nor being depressed. I'm having this depress-depressan factor lately. Hahaha:D weird! Well, feel ko lang yun. I'm happy and I'm happy. Are you happy with it too ba? Great! Apir! Lols.ü I'm startin to be out of my mind again! Argggh! Wala lang. Unpredictable din ang mga nangyayari ngayon! Maybe kulang lang sa lambing! Hahaha:D pansinin mo ako babe! Haha:D just kidding ;p
-xXxXxXx-
Last Friday (April 13) Red and Yen went here at the house, just to visit me! Weh? Haha:D and I'm having fun seeing them especially Red! Yey! I miss him already. Hope he misses me too! Yikes! Haha:D I love him. And I'm loving hm more each day! Tee-heee! Lols.ü
Let's keep on falling in love people. Let's keep on living the life that God gave us. Let's just be thankful that God let this things happen cos we know that He has its own reasons for letting this things happen! Yey! I love God more than He ever know! I am so thankful having my love in my life, my family, friends and things that I have and enjoying right now! He rocks! :)
Anyway, got to go. I'm off to Meralco! Haha;D tah-tuh! Mwuaaah!
-xXxXxXx-
"What makes some people dearest is not just the happiness that you feel when you meet them, but it's the pain you feel when you miss them.."
Labels: mood.
@ 2:36 PM
I'm back ^__^
Thursday, April 12, 2007
So there. I'm back :) my old account was accidentally deleted by me. Hehe:P i miss blogging. I just want to say thank you to Miss Raya for helping me out to edit the htmls and some codes to this new account of mine. Thank you so much! ^___^
Anyway, I miss blogging. It's been a while since I didn't updated my blog (the old one). Yey! So I'm back! Aren't you glad that I'm back? Just kidding. So I guess enough of this. I have lots of things to do now. Got to go! Till next time :)*********
"The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right time. But also to leave the wrong thing unsaid at the most tempting moment.."
@ 3:28 PM
April 2007
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