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inexplicable

Saturday, May 26, 2007

There are things that aren't easy to forget. No matter how much you tried to forget so, still you can't easily can. Maybe the reason of it is that the wounds are too deep and it really takes a time for it to be healed.

Being bitter by your past doesn't really mean that you pity yourself so much or you're such a big damn loser or whatever. It just only means that you just allow the pain of your unpleasant or embarassing things from your past to hurt you --- for now. And all you wanna do is to be tired of it that maybe (just maybe) sooner you will be..

Sometimes no matter how much you want to love, care for that person you just can't really show it off easily cos you feel daunt by the thought of it. Sometimes you want the feelings to end but still there's a part of you that you don't want to lose a grip on it anyhow. You fool yourself by pretending that you don't care or love that person anymore but deep inside you really really do.

At this moment of time, all I think about is him. Sometimes, I really really wanna say how much I love him, how much I care for him, how much I miss him, but I can't. For the reason that I'm afraid to tell it to him. Dreading that he might reject it, won't say "I love you too", or worst -- dont' give any damn about it. But I do hope he knows how much I do those things.

If I could just speak it up to him, I don't know what will gonna happen. I don't like others even though how much I tried to like others, but I still can't cos he's all that I want. If he'll just know it, will he still push me away to others?

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Oh by the way, Miss Raya tagged me. Awww. Thanks for remembering me :) Haha.ü

Here's the 411:

1. Write about how much addicted you are towards something.
2. Don't forget to include the percentage of 'addictedness' towards that thing.
3. All with one condition, the total of percentage much reach 100%.
4. You MUST tag others and continue tagging but please don't forget to explain the rules and please notify that person so that they know that they had been tagged.

I am 2% addicted to coffee. Yay! I'm not that really a coffee lover anyway , isn't obvious? Boo-hoo! :) But I love the taste of Cappuccinno.ü

I am 56% addicted to the net. Wow. So how was it anyway? Hehe. Well, I love surfing the net, checking my friends profile, leaving them some hilarious comments and having a little learnings about htmls and the likes :)

I am 16% addicted to magazines. Yes yes, I got an every month issue of CANDY. I love it. ^__^

I am 20% addicted to bags. Hahaha. I love bags but I'm afraid borrowing my Mom's bag cos there's an incident that her favorite bag was snatched cos I used it. Haha:D My bad ^__^

I am 6% addicted to Detective Conan. I love the tactics and the skills of Conan as a detective. And I love how he protects Ran in his little own ways :P
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Total: 100%

Now I'm tagging whoever wants to answer it :)

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