Monday, May 07, 2007


"May mga bagay na ayaw kong isipin pero di ko naman kayang kalimutan. Bagay na ayaw kong ituloy pero takot akong wakasan.. Yun bang ayaw kong umasa pero gusto ko pa ring maghintay...



Why do I need to feel this thing? Why I can't let go of my feelings? Why I can't just give it up? Why it is so hard for me to move on? Why I continuously feel this feeling which I supposed to stop and forget at all for good? Why I can't be happy? Why I still continue wanting for something which in reality I will never ever have again? Why I'm afraid of what will gonna happen? Why I'm afraid of taking risks? Why I can't go out with my comfort zone? Why I'm not letting myself to grow? Why I let things hurt me? Why do I still need to think of everything which I supposed not to? Why I'm still crying wherein I don't have any tears to cry on? Why I'm still expecting things will be back to normal? Why I'm letting this feeling to hurt me? Why I'm allowing myself be in a deep hurt that will lead to some depression? Why I'm not getting tired of crying? Why I'm still believing in the lies of life? Why I can't just live my life on its normal mode? Why do I need to ignore the pain and pretend that I'm happy and pretty alright? Why is it it's getting too hard and hurts more? Why I can't just be in silence forever?


Why I'm still believing in LOVE?


I want to be happy, happy for real.. I want to get tired of everything. I want this feeling to fade, I want it to die.. I can't help it.. I want to get over it. I want to move on. I want to pick up the pieces of me by myself, but how will I? I can't really help myself this time. I'm drowning with this pain, not just pain --- an AGONY per say.


I really wanted to get over it. God please do help me. Please? T.T

@ 6:00 PM



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