Friday, April 11, 2008
Holla! I've already moved to CLICK HERE =) more updates, more fun, more information and more dramas! Oyeah! ^__^ thankies =))

Friday, March 28, 2008
It's darn hot! Deymit! I'm sweating.. Hahaha!

I received a text from Mau, it says, "Hindi sa lahat ng oras kailangan ng relasyon.. At hindi lahat ng maganda sa pakiramdam ay TAMA.." Onga naman, he's right :)

I also received a text from Au, "bakit hindi mo subukan?" Sagot ko naman, "Sinubukan ko na.. Wala naman nangyari. Mas nagiging masakit lang lalo.. Mahirap narin subukan at umasa na sana ayun na.. Bahala na kung ano mangyayari.. Nakakatakot sumubok ulit. Hindi ako ganun ka-risk taker.. Takot ako =))"

"Kunwari, masaya ako.. Apir! =))"

Sunday, March 23, 2008
There's something in this PC that I can't really resist, it's telling me to write something and tell what I really feel inside. Geez! WTF!

Sometimes, things you want aren't the things you'll get.. It's like you love someone knowing that you're not sure if he/she even loves you back and that awful truth makes you sick and makes you feel like you're in a despair position.

It doesn't make sense anyway. The truth is, I'm broken.. Broken like a bone that is so painful that you ain't want to try something else 'cause you might feel that pain again. Oh c'mon! This whole thing makes me sooo whatever..

I'm not really broken. I just feel like I don't have any guts to tell that person how much he really means to me.. Maybe I'm just scared.. Scared to let him know my feelings for him. Scared to know the truth that maybe he doesn't feel the same way. Scared to hear that "it won't work.."

I admit, I'm bitter :]

Watching those cheesy-chick-flick really affects me, somehow! My life turns out to be in a dramatic episode again as I watched those. Ooh.. But it made me realize somehow how I really wanted to feel that "something" again. But I guess it won't happen and only thing I should do is to wait until it finally across to me someday. Only God knows! Just enjoy. I'm still having fun with the life that I have right now and with the people who still loves me.. I'm still not yet taken for granted, and it's pretty good to know :)

Thursday, March 20, 2008

inspired by Kuya Keso's artworks :) thankss! I'll make more soon ^__^

I'm inspired and I'm urging to learn more about this photoshop thinggy! I want to take some beautiful shots :) and maybe I'll do it by tomorrow! I'm going to bring my baby with me! Yippeee! Goodluck with me folks!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Banawe, Orthopedic

A yummy pizza from Fat Boy's!

Monday, March 17, 2008
Pasado alas-tres na ng umaga. Katatapos ko lang gawin 'yung completion namin para sa AVEM! Parang ayoko nanaman matulog. Ewan ko kung bakit. Ayun. Kaya lang naman ako nag-post dahil may gusto akong sabihin at gustong ibahagi.

Ayos lang naman siguro sa'yo kung hihiramin ko ang konting oras mo para mabasa ito 'di ba? Sa tingin mo? Ayos lang kung ayaw mo :) Hindi naman ako namimilit.

Una, sa tingin ko kasi mukhang may malaking problemang mangyayari ngayon. Kinakabahan ako sa pwedeng mangyari. Naiiyak ako 'pag naaalala ko nanaman 'yun. Hindi naman ito buhay pag-ibig (sorry ka! :D) sana maayos ito at sana nagkakamali lang sila. Kasi kapag nagkataon na tama, lagot na talaga. Ipagdasal niyo na lang na sana maging okay 'yung lahat.

Pangalawa, matatapos na ang semestre, malungkot nanaman ang buhay ko. Hindi ko nanaman makikita at makakasama ang mga taong madalas magpasaya at magpatawa sa akin kapag masungit, suplada, may topak at malungkot ako. Mamimiss ko sila panigurado. Bakasyon na, walang pera, walang tawanan, walang kwentuhan, walang sigawan ng paglalambing, walang kulitan. Hayyy! Ano ba silbi ng cellphone? Telephone? Ano nga ba kung walang load dahil walang pera at dahil bakasyon? XD

Pangatlo, sabi ko kumikirot pa 'di ba? Oo, kumikirot pa nga. May konting sugat pa at sana sa darating na panahon maghilom na siya. Sabi nga ni Yen (nakuha niya lang din sa'kin) Huwag ng ipilit ang hindi na talaga pwede. Ang kulit kasi! Tama nga naman! Panahon na lang makapag-sasabi ng lahat. Hintay-hintay lang. Mahaba pa ang panahon, marami pang dapat asikasuhin, pagtuunan ng pansin, at marami pang bagay na pwde makapag-pasaya ng sobra sa isang tao. Bakit kaya ganoon noh? Wala lang. Ang wirdo lang kasi.

Pang-apat, ano kaya mangyayari sa'min next sem noh? Masaya kaya? O baka nakamamatay na ang mga gawain? Malamang, oo! Take it from the higher levels :) Kaya 'yan. Naka-abot ng next level, bakit hindi next level ulit 'di ba?

Pang-lima, kaya ko ba? Kakayanin ko ba? Basta! Sa tingin niyo kakayanin ko? Sa tingin ko naman oo, kaso medyo nanghihina lang ang loob ko. Nauunahan ng katangahan :) Hindi pa talaga ito ang tamang oras. Buhay nga naman, mapag-biro masyado. Tsk! Ayos lang, sanay naman ako sa joke kaso hindi ganitong joke.

Pang-anim, trip ko 'yung isang kanta ng Daphne Loves Derby na "A Year On An Airplane". Love it. Oh, masaya na ako niyan :)

Pang-pito, tapos na.. Tapos na 'yung post na ito. Salamat sa pagbabasa :) Medyo naging ok na din kahit paano. Ganoon lang talaga siguro. Kung may maitutulong ka, malugod kong tinatanggap 'yun at maraming salamat na din. ^___^

Saturday, March 15, 2008
I'm almost 24 hours awake. So? Nothing! Anyway, thank God 'cause we already finished our newspaper! Whew! We thought we're already a dead meat 'cause we started at around 5pm yesterday then it's almost 10pm and we haven't yet in the middle page of our 12-pages newspaper! Ugh! But we did it! ^__^ We finished it at around 5am or 6am something and it's really a great job for us (Yen, Gert and I)

And because I'm lack of sleep, I easily get irritated today! So don't try to make my mood not-so-good this time :) bear with me folks.

Oh, hell week is already over. Meaning? It's partey time again! Hahaha. It's time to fix my goddamn life :) Yippeee!

Sarili ko lang makakatulong sa akin ^__^ may sugat pa rin at minsan kumikirot pa din siya..

Monday, March 10, 2008
Who's fault? I don't know. I can't say it's his or it's mine. Ugh! Deymmit!

I was drifting awhile ago. It seems like I'm being too fast or I'm just not on myself when I was walking the streets and I didn't even notice that people are walking with me 'cause it's rush hour.

It's my first time to feel that "i don't know what you called it," it's like "OMG, is this what really happened? Oh c'mon! It's just a dream, honey!" Ugh! What else can I say? I'm a very bitchy lass! Pathetic! How I wish things will turn well, but it didn't.

I feel sorry for me. Maybe it's an experience! Damn! I wanna cry and stumble like a whatever bitch do!

I don't know what I'm saying right now.. It seems like I'm typing it in a blundering way! Oohh!

Labels: floating

Thursday, March 06, 2008
What a hell week for me! Ugh. I'mso much irritated and upset this past few days. Why? Well, I'm expecting too much from something which I know it won't happen. Ugh! Anyway, as to relieve myself from this annoying stuffs, I saw yesterday Mr. Speech Lab and he's wearing pink shirt and it soothes to his personality (even though I don't know him personally) hahaha! He's on my back when I was refilling by bottled water, and rest of my friends calling me and saying, "cy, cy.." with matching pinpointing their lips at my back, knowing that Mr. Speech Lab is at my back. Whoaness! Hahaha. And as we reached our room, I told Ms. De Leon about that. Hahaha. She already knew about Mr. Speech Lab since she handled that professor :) Enough said with that.
I'm still busy as a bee. And I still have problem, SINO BA ANG MAY ALAM KUNG SAAN PWEDE MAGPA-PRINT NG BROADSHEET?? Need help lang talaga. If you know, just inform me thru here. Thanks so much! ^__^

Monday, February 25, 2008
Thanks to my Mom for fixing our modem. Oyea! Surfing again :) Lots of things to do anyway, so I'm making them kulit to fix it right away. Amo? Lol. So there, I am supposed to be at Red's house today, but I woke up late 'cause I stay up late na rin. I slept at around 5 am doing nothing. Hahaha. And I feel bit lazy to go out.

Reading "The woman who had two navels" made me sick. Arggh! The plot is in danger. Lol.

I wanna go to Baywalk. Hahaha. Need some air babe! :) I'm still looking for someone to go with me. But since it's finals na, it seems no one wants to go with me. It's alright :) There's still NEXT TIME.

I can't wait for this semester to end. Why? Argh! Lagi na lang akong busy nitong nakaraan. Hindi ko na naaayos yung buhay ko! Hahahaha.

Wanna know some bit gossips about it? Better not to know. Lol.

It seems like no one undertstand me this past day. Oh babe, I'm just stressed-out! Ugh. Maybe, you hate me for being me.. I want to take some rest anyway.

I wanna BREAKAWAY, again :)

Friday, February 22, 2008
AMPLIFIED: THE ANGELICUM CONCERT SERIES 2008

PRESENTS TODAYS BANDS FROM THE LOCALSCENE:
CAMBIO
SUGARFREE
SANDWICH..

TICKETS ARE AVAILABLE AT P150.00 ONLY!

JAMMING WILL BE ON 22 FEB. 2008AT 5-8 PM IN THE ST. VINCENT COVEREDCOURT...

FOR INQUIRIES:
SEND ME AN EMAIL AT cynelness@gmail.com

SEE YOU THERE :)

Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Whoa! I'm not going to make any clarifications with regard to "hearsay-shit" honey.. I'm not making any big deal out of it, alright? By the way, don't be bitter too much. Halata, eh! I am mean and I know that. But I still respect you.

And oh, stop making any fuss boy.. I know your style. If you don't have any thing good to say, just seal your mouth, alright? I won't trust you again. Once is enough to a wise lady :)

I'm out. Still need to read Nick Joaquin's novel. For the first time, I thank MALACANANG for a NON-WORKING HOLIDAY this Monday. I was supposed to pass our book review, but its postponed! Oyea! Happiness over that corny moment.

It's Wednesday tomorrow and I'm excited. Haha. Enough said. Byers! :)

Labels: bitter

Saturday, February 16, 2008

I wanna see the improvement with the alumni of ours. I wanna see the old crushes (if there is). I wanna see my very loving teachers way back then.

Oh, belated HAPPY ♥ DAY :) sorry for the late greeting. I'm busy that time. So, how is it? Uhm, well it was fun. I celebrated it with friends. But not much effort. Hahaha. I saw Brother BJ again and it made me smile for awhile. Lol. I love joking around with friends. They are one of the most wonderful gifts that I ever had :) Aww. So sweet of me. Hahaha. Just making some compliments for me. Isn't that cool? Ugh. Whatever! I'm insane. Not in my proper mind and self. I'm not drunk, what more when I'm drunk?

Speaking of drunk, I wanna drink and be drunk to the drunk of love. Huh? Laboness. Don't mind it. I'm just being too silly with this stuffs. This is what I get when I read too much and think too much..
I think it's enough. I wanna eat again. I'm starving and I'm getting fat again. Ugh. Hate it. See ya later. Bye!

Labels: insanse

Monday, February 11, 2008
There's nothing much stuffs that we did today but I don't know why the heck I am feeling this tiredness. Ugh! What's up with that? Err! Thinking those stuffs that we're going to do that is due on Saturday makes me SICK! Really sick!

All I want is to laid my back on my bed, close my eyes, dream like a princess and have this wonderful sleep! Hahaha. My eyes is tired, my back is aching, my heart is starting to whatever! Lol.

Oh, I am selling chocolates :) They only cost P8.00 so if you are interested, you could approach me in whatever ways you want. Haha. Kidding. Kidding aside, as of now I only have two designs (bear and rose).. I am selling white chocolate today, and I'll be making brown chocolate tomorrow! I'm serious!

So, if you want to have some orders you can text me or call me (if you know my number :p) You could also send me a message through here.. I'm always around at school (Angelicum College, 4th Floor, Collegiate Department). Please, please! Buy some! :) I guarantee you that you'll never regret buying and eating that chocolates. Yummy! ^__^ Swear! Thankss!

Labels: chocolates

Friday, February 01, 2008
I still blog. Want some updates?

I'm updating right now. Lol.

Check out my multiply page, more dramatic thoughts of mine compiled there :) More pics too, if you want lang :P

I'm not busy anymore.

I'm done with the production, so far it turns out well though it's not that very professional :)

It's party time again.

I miss myself. I miss Cynel. I miss everything!
Time to change a bit, I guess!

Where art thou sunshine? :P

Wednesday, January 02, 2008
It's already 2008, there are lots of things to be happy about. Yeah, there are lots but why I'm still acting this way? I feel like I'm lost, empty or whatever you call it. This past few weeks I'm looking for someone whom I can tell what I am feeling right now. Someone who has this very broad mind to understand me 'cause I know you need a lot of understanding when you hear all my whinnings. Unfortunately, there's none. No one seems like to listen to me, understand me. There's no need to pity me, just UNDERSTANDING and EARS are all I need :)

You know what? The PROBLEM IS ME. That's it. I don't blame anyone why I'm feeling this way. It is me who wants to feel it. It is me who wants to be hurt all the time. It is me who wants to make my world be crazy like this. Oh yes, pathetic me. Who says I'm okay? A bit, maybe.

I told God that I want everything to be alright as new year comes, maybe in His little ways it'll be. But one step at a time. Maybe He wants me to be okay, but not just with one snap of my finger. Little by little, instead.

Just want to let these feelings out.

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WELL DONE IS MUCH BETTER THAN WELL SAID..

There will always be reasons to become sad, but there will never be reasons to stay sad. Life itself is already dramatic.

Saturday, December 22, 2007
OMG! LOLXD Nothing. Ah, loser :P just kidding.

Anyway, more days to come. For what? Ugh, secret. Haha. It's not all about christmas anyway :)

It's almost a year since .......... happens (leave it blank peeps).

Arrggh! Wish ko lang hindi na mangyari yun. Kung mangyari man ulit, please not on the same day! Haha. Matandain pa naman ako sa petsa. Sohoorry kayo :P

At kung mangyari man ulit (amp, paulit-ulit lang) wish ko lang madaling matanggap. Haha.

Congrats! We won! Oyea! Champion! Chichibells apir! Sohorry Kuya Brian, inaantok na talaga ako kaya pangit na ang tira ng bola :)


P.S.
Seryoso, kinakabahan ako!

I have a class at around 11 in the morning and what the heck am I doing right now? Err. Surfing the net like I don't have any class. Well, maybe the laziness hits me again :) It's almost christmas vacation and we still have class. Dammit! Blame that school (inset "blame on me song.. Hahaha:D

I'm having a hard time to sleep again last night. Blame it on that alcoholic drink that we drunk last night with some of high school friends. Hahaha. Kidding aside, there's a weird thought that strikes my mind last night, and it goes like, "parang napaka-walang kwenta kong tao..".

Enough said.

Off to shower :P