And I'm thankful everyday for the gift..

I moved already =)

2008-04-11T18:50:00.001-07:00

Holla! I've already moved to CLICK HERE =) more updates, more fun, more information and more dramas! Oyeah! ^__^ thankies =))

Before I leave..

2008-03-28T10:00:00.000-07:00

It's darn hot! Deymit! I'm sweating.. Hahaha!

I received a text from Mau, it says, "Hindi sa lahat ng oras kailangan ng relasyon.. At hindi lahat ng maganda sa pakiramdam ay TAMA.." Onga naman, he's right :)

I also received a text from Au, "bakit hindi mo subukan?" Sagot ko naman, "Sinubukan ko na.. Wala naman nangyari. Mas nagiging masakit lang lalo.. Mahirap narin subukan at umasa na sana ayun na.. Bahala na kung ano mangyayari.. Nakakatakot sumubok ulit. Hindi ako ganun ka-risk taker.. Takot ako =))"

"Kunwari, masaya ako.. Apir! =))"

Whatever.

2008-03-23T23:30:00.000-07:00

There's something in this PC that I can't really resist, it's telling me to write something and tell what I really feel inside. Geez! WTF!

Sometimes, things you want aren't the things you'll get.. It's like you love someone knowing that you're not sure if he/she even loves you back and that awful truth makes you sick and makes you feel like you're in a despair position.

It doesn't make sense anyway. The truth is, I'm broken.. Broken like a bone that is so painful that you ain't want to try something else 'cause you might feel that pain again. Oh c'mon! This whole thing makes me sooo whatever..

I'm not really broken. I just feel like I don't have any guts to tell that person how much he really means to me.. Maybe I'm just scared.. Scared to let him know my feelings for him. Scared to know the truth that maybe he doesn't feel the same way. Scared to hear that "it won't work.."

I admit, I'm bitter :]

sheesshh

2008-03-23T15:00:00.000-07:00

Watching those cheesy-chick-flick really affects me, somehow! My life turns out to be in a dramatic episode again as I watched those. Ooh.. But it made me realize somehow how I really wanted to feel that "something" again. But I guess it won't happen and only thing I should do is to wait until it finally across to me someday. Only God knows! Just enjoy. I'm still having fun with the life that I have right now and with the people who still loves me.. I'm still not yet taken for granted, and it's pretty good to know :)

ART IS LOVE!

2008-03-20T19:00:00.000-07:00

pwede na ba?

inspired by Kuya Keso's artworks :) thankss! I'll make more soon ^__^

inspired :)

2008-03-20T17:00:00.000-07:00

I'm inspired and I'm urging to learn more about this photoshop thinggy! I want to take some beautiful shots :) and maybe I'll do it by tomorrow! I'm going to bring my baby with me! Yippeee! Goodluck with me folks!

a date.

2008-03-19T08:00:00.000-07:00

I, Gert, Yen and Miss Santos went to a date at Fat Boy's Pizza house and Ice Cream House at Banawe! The pizza at Fat Boy's is definitely yummy and affordable :) while the ice cream at Ice Cream house is kind of yummy too though it's not that really sweet. I wanna try the funwich icecream but I'm already full so I did not bother to buy it. The date was fun and it was a bonding moment too since it's our last day with her subject and next sem we won't have any computer subjects whom she's the professor. Aww, sad! Anyway, afterwards I, Yen and Gert went to Sm North and before that we saw a ukay-ukay store so we decided to go there because Gert wants to buy somethnig for Ate Marlyn an I myself bought a skirt for summer outfit :)

I buy again a pair of flip-flops from planet! To think of, I already bought a pair of flip-flops the other day with Red at Toeberries, and again I bought myself a pair the other day! Am I flipflop-holic? Hahaha! What a term :) I just love slippers, I'm sorry, tee-hee!

P.S.
I forgot my digicam so I wasn't be able to take a lot of pictures! :(

Banawe, Orthopedic

A yummy pizza from Fat Boy's!

A pair of flip-flops from Planet

A pair from Toeberries

Pahiram muna ng konting oras.

2008-03-17T04:00:00.000-07:00

Pasado alas-tres na ng umaga. Katatapos ko lang gawin 'yung completion namin para sa AVEM! Parang ayoko nanaman matulog. Ewan ko kung bakit. Ayun. Kaya lang naman ako nag-post dahil may gusto akong sabihin at gustong ibahagi.

Ayos lang naman siguro sa'yo kung hihiramin ko ang konting oras mo para mabasa ito 'di ba? Sa tingin mo? Ayos lang kung ayaw mo :) Hindi naman ako namimilit.

Una, sa tingin ko kasi mukhang may malaking problemang mangyayari ngayon. Kinakabahan ako sa pwedeng mangyari. Naiiyak ako 'pag naaalala ko nanaman 'yun. Hindi naman ito buhay pag-ibig (sorry ka! :D) sana maayos ito at sana nagkakamali lang sila. Kasi kapag nagkataon na tama, lagot na talaga. Ipagdasal niyo na lang na sana maging okay 'yung lahat.

Pangalawa, matatapos na ang semestre, malungkot nanaman ang buhay ko. Hindi ko nanaman makikita at makakasama ang mga taong madalas magpasaya at magpatawa sa akin kapag masungit, suplada, may topak at malungkot ako. Mamimiss ko sila panigurado. Bakasyon na, walang pera, walang tawanan, walang kwentuhan, walang sigawan ng paglalambing, walang kulitan. Hayyy! Ano ba silbi ng cellphone? Telephone? Ano nga ba kung walang load dahil walang pera at dahil bakasyon? XD

Pangatlo, sabi ko kumikirot pa 'di ba? Oo, kumikirot pa nga. May konting sugat pa at sana sa darating na panahon maghilom na siya. Sabi nga ni Yen (nakuha niya lang din sa'kin) Huwag ng ipilit ang hindi na talaga pwede. Ang kulit kasi! Tama nga naman! Panahon na lang makapag-sasabi ng lahat. Hintay-hintay lang. Mahaba pa ang panahon, marami pang dapat asikasuhin, pagtuunan ng pansin, at marami pang bagay na pwde makapag-pasaya ng sobra sa isang tao. Bakit kaya ganoon noh? Wala lang. Ang wirdo lang kasi.

Pang-apat, ano kaya mangyayari sa'min next sem noh? Masaya kaya? O baka nakamamatay na ang mga gawain? Malamang, oo! Take it from the higher levels :) Kaya 'yan. Naka-abot ng next level, bakit hindi next level ulit 'di ba?

Pang-lima, kaya ko ba? Kakayanin ko ba? Basta! Sa tingin niyo kakayanin ko? Sa tingin ko naman oo, kaso medyo nanghihina lang ang loob ko. Nauunahan ng katangahan :) Hindi pa talaga ito ang tamang oras. Buhay nga naman, mapag-biro masyado. Tsk! Ayos lang, sanay naman ako sa joke kaso hindi ganitong joke.

Pang-anim, trip ko 'yung isang kanta ng Daphne Loves Derby na "A Year On An Airplane". Love it. Oh, masaya na ako niyan :)

Pang-pito, tapos na.. Tapos na 'yung post na ito. Salamat sa pagbabasa :) Medyo naging ok na din kahit paano. Ganoon lang talaga siguro. Kung may maitutulong ka, malugod kong tinatanggap 'yun at maraming salamat na din. ^___^

kumikirot pa din siya.

2008-03-15T18:30:00.000-07:00

I'm almost 24 hours awake. So? Nothing! Anyway, thank God 'cause we already finished our newspaper! Whew! We thought we're already a dead meat 'cause we started at around 5pm yesterday then it's almost 10pm and we haven't yet in the middle page of our 12-pages newspaper! Ugh! But we did it! ^__^ We finished it at around 5am or 6am something and it's really a great job for us (Yen, Gert and I)

And because I'm lack of sleep, I easily get irritated today! So don't try to make my mood not-so-good this time :) bear with me folks.

Oh, hell week is already over. Meaning? It's partey time again! Hahaha. It's time to fix my goddamn life :) Yippeee!

Sarili ko lang makakatulong sa akin ^__^ may sugat pa rin at minsan kumikirot pa din siya..

i don't know

2008-03-10T20:30:00.000-07:00

Who's fault? I don't know. I can't say it's his or it's mine. Ugh! Deymmit!

I was drifting awhile ago. It seems like I'm being too fast or I'm just not on myself when I was walking the streets and I didn't even notice that people are walking with me 'cause it's rush hour.

It's my first time to feel that "i don't know what you called it," it's like "OMG, is this what really happened? Oh c'mon! It's just a dream, honey!" Ugh! What else can I say? I'm a very bitchy lass! Pathetic! How I wish things will turn well, but it didn't.

I feel sorry for me. Maybe it's an experience! Damn! I wanna cry and stumble like a whatever bitch do!

I don't know what I'm saying right now.. It seems like I'm typing it in a blundering way! Oohh!

Need help.

2008-03-06T10:00:00.000-08:00

What a hell week for me! Ugh. I'mso much irritated and upset this past few days. Why? Well, I'm expecting too much from something which I know it won't happen. Ugh! Anyway, as to relieve myself from this annoying stuffs, I saw yesterday Mr. Speech Lab and he's wearing pink shirt and it soothes to his personality (even though I don't know him personally) hahaha! He's on my back when I was refilling by bottled water, and rest of my friends calling me and saying, "cy, cy.." with matching pinpointing their lips at my back, knowing that Mr. Speech Lab is at my back. Whoaness! Hahaha. And as we reached our room, I told Ms. De Leon about that. Hahaha. She already knew about Mr. Speech Lab since she handled that professor :) Enough said with that.
I'm still busy as a bee. And I still have problem, SINO BA ANG MAY ALAM KUNG SAAN PWEDE MAGPA-PRINT NG BROADSHEET?? Need help lang talaga. If you know, just inform me thru here. Thanks so much! ^__^

fix it.

2008-02-25T13:30:00.000-08:00

Thanks to my Mom for fixing our modem. Oyea! Surfing again :) Lots of things to do anyway, so I'm making them kulit to fix it right away. Amo? Lol. So there, I am supposed to be at Red's house today, but I woke up late 'cause I stay up late na rin. I slept at around 5 am doing nothing. Hahaha. And I feel bit lazy to go out.

Reading "The woman who had two navels" made me sick. Arggh! The plot is in danger. Lol.

I wanna go to Baywalk. Hahaha. Need some air babe! :) I'm still looking for someone to go with me. But since it's finals na, it seems no one wants to go with me. It's alright :) There's still NEXT TIME.

I can't wait for this semester to end. Why? Argh! Lagi na lang akong busy nitong nakaraan. Hindi ko na naaayos yung buhay ko! Hahahaha.

Wanna know some bit gossips about it? Better not to know. Lol.

It seems like no one undertstand me this past day. Oh babe, I'm just stressed-out! Ugh. Maybe, you hate me for being me.. I want to take some rest anyway.

I wanna BREAKAWAY, again :)

CAMBIO, SUGARFREE AND SANDWICH @ ANGELICUM COLLEGE!!!

2008-02-22T01:00:00.000-08:00

AMPLIFIED: THE ANGELICUM CONCERT SERIES 2008

PRESENTS TODAYS BANDS FROM THE LOCALSCENE:
CAMBIO
SUGARFREE
SANDWICH..

TICKETS ARE AVAILABLE AT P150.00 ONLY!

JAMMING WILL BE ON 22 FEB. 2008AT 5-8 PM IN THE ST. VINCENT COVEREDCOURT...

FOR INQUIRIES:
SEND ME AN EMAIL AT cynelness@gmail.com

SEE YOU THERE :)

Are you bitter?

2008-02-19T19:07:00.000-08:00

Whoa! I'm not going to make any clarifications with regard to "hearsay-shit" honey.. I'm not making any big deal out of it, alright? By the way, don't be bitter too much. Halata, eh! I am mean and I know that. But I still respect you.

And oh, stop making any fuss boy.. I know your style. If you don't have any thing good to say, just seal your mouth, alright? I won't trust you again. Once is enough to a wise lady :)

I'm out. Still need to read Nick Joaquin's novel. For the first time, I thank MALACANANG for a NON-WORKING HOLIDAY this Monday. I was supposed to pass our book review, but its postponed! Oyea! Happiness over that corny moment.

It's Wednesday tomorrow and I'm excited. Haha. Enough said. Byers! :)

You wanna see hell?

2008-02-16T08:45:00.000-08:00

Wanna see hell in the most beautiful way?? Fall in love with me :)

Hahaha. I have a class later at around 11am. Just sneaking up my online accounts :) We have quiz too and recitation. I'm done with my readings. I got bored so I slept for about an hour. I felt like the time is moving so slow today. I don't know why. Tantrums striked again yesterday. Sorry dear if I'm being too moody. Hahaha.
I am planning to go to my High School school later after my class. Just want to see my old-deary friends :) I miss them and i know they miss me too. Lol.

I wanna see the improvement with the alumni of ours. I wanna see the old crushes (if there is). I wanna see my very loving teachers way back then.

Oh, belated HAPPY ♥ DAY :) sorry for the late greeting. I'm busy that time. So, how is it? Uhm, well it was fun. I celebrated it with friends. But not much effort. Hahaha. I saw Brother BJ again and it made me smile for awhile. Lol. I love joking around with friends. They are one of the most wonderful gifts that I ever had :) Aww. So sweet of me. Hahaha. Just making some compliments for me. Isn't that cool? Ugh. Whatever! I'm insane. Not in my proper mind and self. I'm not drunk, what more when I'm drunk?

Speaking of drunk, I wanna drink and be drunk to the drunk of love. Huh? Laboness. Don't mind it. I'm just being too silly with this stuffs. This is what I get when I read too much and think too much..
I think it's enough. I wanna eat again. I'm starving and I'm getting fat again. Ugh. Hate it. See ya later. Bye!

Hey! Want some chocolates? :)

2008-02-11T18:30:00.000-08:00

There's nothing much stuffs that we did today but I don't know why the heck I am feeling this tiredness. Ugh! What's up with that? Err! Thinking those stuffs that we're going to do that is due on Saturday makes me SICK! Really sick!

All I want is to laid my back on my bed, close my eyes, dream like a princess and have this wonderful sleep! Hahaha. My eyes is tired, my back is aching, my heart is starting to whatever! Lol.

Oh, I am selling chocolates :) They only cost P8.00 so if you are interested, you could approach me in whatever ways you want. Haha. Kidding. Kidding aside, as of now I only have two designs (bear and rose).. I am selling white chocolate today, and I'll be making brown chocolate tomorrow! I'm serious!

So, if you want to have some orders you can text me or call me (if you know my number :p) You could also send me a message through here.. I'm always around at school (Angelicum College, 4th Floor, Collegiate Department). Please, please! Buy some! :) I guarantee you that you'll never regret buying and eating that chocolates. Yummy! ^__^ Swear! Thankss!

Ola!

2008-02-01T20:00:00.000-08:00

I still blog. Want some updates?

I'm updating right now. Lol.

Check out my multiply page, more dramatic thoughts of mine compiled there :) More pics too, if you want lang :P

I'm not busy anymore.

I'm done with the production, so far it turns out well though it's not that very professional :)

It's party time again.

I miss myself. I miss Cynel. I miss everything!
Time to change a bit, I guess!

Where art thou sunshine? :P

I am not okay.

2008-01-02T02:05:00.000-08:00

It's already 2008, there are lots of things to be happy about. Yeah, there are lots but why I'm still acting this way? I feel like I'm lost, empty or whatever you call it. This past few weeks I'm looking for someone whom I can tell what I am feeling right now. Someone who has this very broad mind to understand me 'cause I know you need a lot of understanding when you hear all my whinnings. Unfortunately, there's none. No one seems like to listen to me, understand me. There's no need to pity me, just UNDERSTANDING and EARS are all I need :)

You know what? The PROBLEM IS ME. That's it. I don't blame anyone why I'm feeling this way. It is me who wants to feel it. It is me who wants to be hurt all the time. It is me who wants to make my world be crazy like this. Oh yes, pathetic me. Who says I'm okay? A bit, maybe.

I told God that I want everything to be alright as new year comes, maybe in His little ways it'll be. But one step at a time. Maybe He wants me to be okay, but not just with one snap of my finger. Little by little, instead.

Just want to let these feelings out.

***

WELL DONE IS MUCH BETTER THAN WELL SAID..

There will always be reasons to become sad, but there will never be reasons to stay sad. Life itself is already dramatic.

Nervous.

2007-12-22T22:00:00.000-08:00

OMG! LOLXD Nothing. Ah, loser :P just kidding.

Anyway, more days to come. For what? Ugh, secret. Haha. It's not all about christmas anyway :)

It's almost a year since .......... happens (leave it blank peeps).

Arrggh! Wish ko lang hindi na mangyari yun. Kung mangyari man ulit, please not on the same day! Haha. Matandain pa naman ako sa petsa. Sohoorry kayo :P

At kung mangyari man ulit (amp, paulit-ulit lang) wish ko lang madaling matanggap. Haha.

Congrats! We won! Oyea! Champion! Chichibells apir! Sohorry Kuya Brian, inaantok na talaga ako kaya pangit na ang tira ng bola :)

P.S.
Seryoso, kinakabahan ako!

Blame it to me :)

2007-12-22T09:00:00.000-08:00

I have a class at around 11 in the morning and what the heck am I doing right now? Err. Surfing the net like I don't have any class. Well, maybe the laziness hits me again :) It's almost christmas vacation and we still have class. Dammit! Blame that school (inset "blame on me song.. Hahaha:D

I'm having a hard time to sleep again last night. Blame it on that alcoholic drink that we drunk last night with some of high school friends. Hahaha. Kidding aside, there's a weird thought that strikes my mind last night, and it goes like, "parang napaka-walang kwenta kong tao..".

Enough said.

Off to shower :P

If only.

2007-12-17T18:00:00.000-08:00

If only I have the powers to make people happy, then maybe the world will be full of happiness.. And I assure that no one will ever feel the sadness.

P.S.
If only Santa could make my wishes do come true.

Goodluck to my group in Sportsfest tomorrow. I feel like I'm all alone. Hindi sila lahat sasama sa Christmas Party! Dammit! Hayss!

THAT'S LIFE :)

You can love two persons at the same time but never at the same degree.

2007-12-13T12:00:00.000-08:00

Let me share this conversation with a friend about "love" daw. Hahaha. Well, I might be like I'm not serious in answering her questions but hey, of course I am serious but it's not just that it's my principle when it comes to love. Wtf! Laboness.

Girlfriend: (serious) Kasalanan ba ang magmahal ng dalawang tao??
Cynel: (laughs) Alam mo, you can love two persons at the same time but never in the same degree.. Gets mo? Parang tayo, mahal mo si **** tas mahal mo rin kami di ba? Yun nga lang iba-iba yung level ng love mo para sa'min. I mean is, love mo kami but not at the same degree. Get it?
Girlfriend: Ah ewan ko sa'yo! Nagtatanong ako ng seryoso tapos kugn ano-ano sinasagot mo sa akin..
Cynel: (laughs) hala! Mukha ba akogn hindi seryoso sa sagot ko? Natatawa lang kasi ako eh! Di ba Jho tama naman yung sagot ko?
Jho: (natatawa) Oo, tama yun.
Cynel: (laughs) Kitams! Dapat si Jho ang tinatanong mo niyan kasi hindi ko pa experience yan! Hahahaha. Joke.
Girlfriend: Hehehe.
Cynel: (laughs) Pero alam mo, hindi naman kasalanan ang magmahal ka ng iba eh. And wala namang batas ang nagsasabi na bawal magmahal. Unless, kung kasal na kayo tapos may iba ka pang mahal at sumama ka doon, ayun malamang kakasuhan ka na ng Adultery. Pero, isipin mo na lang yung kalagayan ng taong masasaktan mo kung pipiliin mong mahalin yung iba. One way or another, life isn't always fair.. Pero kung ako sa'yo kung ano ang nasa puso mo sundin mo. Hahaha.
Girlfriend: Ay ewan ko sa'yo! Ang hirap kasi kaya ng ganun noh. May masasaktan kang iba kung may pipiliin kang iba..
Cynel: Natural may masasaktan ka.. Pero kung ako sa'yo tanungin mo si Jho tungkol diyan kasi konting payo lang mabibigay ko sa'yo.. Oh sige, naranasan ko yan dati pero inisip ko muna yung consequences nun, alam ko na may masasaktan at kailangan ko pumili talagal. Kung ayaw mo naman mamili, eh better off without them na lang di ba? In my case before, oo pumili ako kasi alam ko yun yung tama eh. Mahabang istorya pa kung ikukwento ko. Hahaha. Kahit na tama minsan pwedeng maging mali din. Gets mo? Di naman ako nagsisi na yun yung pinili ko kasi alam ko na sa bandang huli magkaka-hiwalay din kami nun. Ayun nangyari nga. Hahaha. And masaya na ako sa kung anong meron ako ngayon. I'm inlove with what I have right now, babe! Hahahaha. Tanong ka pa.. Lol.
Girlfriend: Ayoko na magtanong sa'yo.. Wala kang matinong sagot eh.
Cynel: Anong wala, sinabi ko na nga sagot ko sa'yo eh. Mukha lang ako loko-loko sumagot ngayon pero matino yun noh. Inaantok lang kasi ako kaya gusto ko tumawa ng tumawa para mawala antok ko. Alam mo naman na yun ang sakit ko. Hahaha. Baliwness na ako noh :D

So there.. End of the conversation. Hahaha.

-o0o0o0o0o-
I am worried right now to what happened to one of our dear girl-friend. We visited her yesterday at their house and in our shocked, she looks like she's really depressed on what the hell happened to her life right now. Some of my girl-friends can't help themselves but to cry as they heard our friend telling her problems. Me? I just kept silent. She's too young to bear all the pain what the life gives in. And too young to give up little by little. So far, prayers and the presence of ours is only help we could give to her.. Hoping she'll be alright soon. Babe, we're just here. Isn't it obvious that we love you so much? We're worried about you of course. Don't think we don't love you. We're always here for you. Dapat mo lang talaga gawin sa ngayon is tulungan mo yung sarili mo.. Huwag mong isipin na pabigat ka or what.. Sana mabasa mo toh. Lumabas ka, huwag kang magkulong sa bahay niyo. Lalo ka lang ma-dedepress, you could go here sa house at mag-dvd marathon tayo at kumain ng kumain. Be happy kahit puro pain binigay ng buhay. Look on the brighter side of life. We miss you a lot..

Buhay nga naman. Kaya yan kung kakayanin.

P.S.
I'm loving the song "Apologize" .. So Sexy ^_^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOM ^___^

just trying our luck.

2007-12-10T18:00:00.000-08:00

We (Gert, Yen, I) went to GMA and ABS-CBN kanina after our class. First stop is GMA, we thought we're going to have a script na 'cause we already had our formal letter of request for the copy of scripts. But unfortunately, we still need to follow-up an appointment with who's-in-charge in entertainment group so we could finally get one. So there, we decided to go to ABS-CBN to try our luck. But.. Maybe, destiny doesn't want us to have a copies of scripts we are badly needing because they said that they're not giving any copy of scripts! Malas lang talaga. Oh wait, there's one thing.. We kind of or should I say we really get pissed with the guy at informaton desk. Here's how it goes:

Yen: Good Afternoon po, tanong lang po namin kung saan po namin ito (presenting the request letter) puwede ibigay kasi kailangan po namin ng copy ng old scripts para sa isang subject namin eh. Hindi po kasi namin alam kung saan po ito.

Guy: Oh paano 'yan, hindi niyo pala alam. Hindi ko rin alam 'yan eh. Dapat alam niyo..

Yen: Eh kaya nga po kami nagtatanong sainyo para malaman namin kung saan po ito..

See how arrogant and rude that guy was? Err! It really annoys us somehow and the way he talks to us, it's like he's bragging something to us, eh! Arggh! Nakaka-asar siya! Hays! Kung ganyan lang din naman yung mga tipo ng taong pag-tatanungan mo at especially sa isa pang company na kilala, hay naku siguro mas ok na kung hindi na lang siya pumwesto sa information noh! Nakaka-asar kasi eh! Tsk! Yung company na pinagta-trabahuan niya ang nasisira eh hindi siya.. Tsk. Akala ko pa naman __________ hindi naman pala..

After then, we went to Mcdo to talk about it and think when will be the next follow-up. Then we ate breads at Julie's bakeshop! Naumay ako sa Buko Pie. Hehehe. So there!

Just curious.

2007-12-09T21:00:00.000-08:00

Have you ever experienced having a feeling of being happy then suddenly in an unknown reason you don't really expect that the happiness you feel might be a feeling of sadness?

Just curious.

And there's another one, have you ever thought of something and tried to ask it but then you regret of hearing the answer 'cause it's not the answer you really wanted to hear? And you'll just say to yourself and sobbing, "sana hindi ko na lang pala tinanong yun.."?

Bubbly.

2007-12-08T21:00:00.000-08:00

Today is the feast of Mary Immaculate Concepcion, therefore we don't have class (Yes, ligtas sa Arce's subject). Haha. So there, I spent the whole day with Ghert, Yen and Amie. First stop, we went to GMA to get a copy of scripts we are needing for our Scriptwriting class. Since today is Saturday, the office is closed. Malas lang. So we decided to go to Megamall instead, to bond and bum around of course. As we get there, we walked and walked until we finally get there at the Art Center wherein obviously you can see artworks. It's an exhibit of Acrylic Paintings (Sorry, I forgot the name of the artist). I was amazed with what the artist did, but as I observed his paintings he's focused on the structures of the houses, buildings, etc. He's into realism lang siguro. Ayun.

As I observed myself, I realized that I'm getting thinner. Arggh! Pansin ko kaya sa pictures ko yun. Hays! But anyway, I ate a lot kanina. Yey! Hahaha. After we ate and did some chitchat about that bastard guy who keeps on pissing us in his unique annoying ways. Haha! Get a life dude! If you'll just know how much I am pissed to you! Arggh! Haha. Peace :D After the gossip talk, we went to World Of Fun and we did the videoke thinggy and I could say that we almost had fun :) Ghert and Yen did enjoy my singing moment. Hahaha. To be honest, I'm really not into singing. Well, yes I could sing but the way I sing can't be as smooth or damn good as the tone of those really good singers! I'm not considering myself as a loser with regard to it, what else can I do? God loves me in His mysterious ways :) So there, I really had fun..

P.S.

*May araw din ang MANONG PULIS NA YUN NA NANGONGOTONG.

*Mama-master ko din ang kantang BRING ME TO LIFE.

*Mauumpisahan ko din yung script namin sa radio drama.

*Makakabawi din si Ghert sa kina-aadikan niya sa WOF. Hahaha.

Ayea.

2007-12-05T19:00:00.000-08:00

Just a simple quote from Ate Joyce but has a sensible thought :)

SALESGIRL: Sir, you can't smoke here..

CUSTOMER: But I bought these cigars from your store.

SALESGIRL: We also sell condoms, but it doesn't mean you can fvck here.. :)

Yeah right ^__^ Having a common sense is really important. Peace y'all.

aymsabaw

2007-11-27T14:31:00.000-08:00

What's with today? Honestly, SABAW! Hahaha..

Ubos pera ang xerox! Amp talaga oh. Next week reporting ulet. Pansin ko lang lagi ako malas when it comes to reporting. Lagi ako nauuna. Hahaha. Radio news naman ang script ngayon :) Wala na. Wala na lang. Laboness.

18 na ako! Ayun. Ganoon pa din ang buhay :) Age lang nagbago sa akin. Hahaha.

Ako na lang nakakaintindi kung ano yun :)) kung alam ko lang ganito kahirap mag-aral. Hahaha. Wala lang, sabi ko lang mahirap :D

There's gotta be more pain in the ass as I grow older! Err. Goodluck! :(

BEWARE OF PAPER IN THE BACK WINDOW OF YOUR VEHICLE NEW WAY TO DO CAR JACKINGS (NOT A JOKE)

2007-11-24T09:00:00.001-08:00

"Heads up everyone! Please, keep this circulating...
You walk across the parking lot, unlock your car and get inside. You start the engine and shift into Reverse. When you look into the rearview mirror to back out of your parking space, you notice a piece of paper stuck to the middle of the rear window. So, you shift into Park, unlock your doors, and jump out of your car to remove that paper (or whatever it is) that is obstructing your view. When you reach the back of your car, that is when the car jackers appear out of nowhere, jump into your car and take off.
They practicall y mow you down as they speed off in your car. And guess what, ladies? I bet your purse is still in the car. So now the carjacker has your car, your home address, your money, and your keys. Your home and your whole identity are now compromised!

BEWARE OF THIS NEW SCHEME THAT IS NOW BEING USED.... If you see a piece of paper stuck to your back window, just drive away. Remove the paper later. And be thankful that you read this e-mail. I hope you will forward this to friends and family, especially to women. A purse contains all kinds of personal information and identification documents, and you certainly do NOT want this to fall into the wrong hands. Please keep
this going. I'm just concerned for the well being of the women in our lives!!! Especially the many women of SLick Rick and SAM YG. MERRY X-MAS to you and your families"

SOURCE: http://boysnightout899.multiply.com

Late post :)

2007-11-22T00:00:00.000-08:00

Yen and I already watched "One More Chance" last Saturday and it's all damn good. Hahaha. Hell yes, it's a drama but hey it made us laugh kaya at some point :) Sulit yung binayad and it has a cheaper price of ticket. But anyway, let's talk about the movie. As I said a while ago, it's all damn good and the main characters of the movie played a sort of mature role, unlike dati na pa-tweetums cheverloo. Hahaha. I love the story and it really made me realize one thing: "Bakit kailangan pa nila magkahiwalay para lang malaman yung halaga ng isa't-isa?" Oh di ba? When I told it to Vincent (over the phone) he couldn't help himself but to laugh at me and amazed with what I've said. Eh, sa totoo naman eh. And guess what? The cheesy side of me suddenly appears again. Hahaha. How? Wala lang, natuwa lang ako sa mga lines doon :P for example,

"Love is blind, so love me.."
-James Blanco (Kenneth)

"She had me at my worst, you had me at my best but still you chose to break my heart.."
-John Llyod Cruz (Popoy)

"Mahal na mahal kita kahit ang sakit-sakit na.."
-John Lloyd

"It's not wrong if you chose to love yourself a little bit more because you are brave enough to grow up.."(well, it's not exactly what Derek said to Bea. But I actually love this part..)
-Derek

"I want to take away all the pain you had.. If I could just do it, but I can't do it.." (Not exactly line of Maja to John Lloyd)
-Maja

So there. Oh by the way, as we've watched the movie and saw John Lloyd act like a maligalig guy somehow, we actually remember "Ponkie". There are scenes kasi na we saw John Lloyd as Ponkie and by that we (Yen and I) can't help ourselves but to miss Ponkie more. It's been a long while since we saw him and he's not enrolled this semester anyway 'cause he has a work already. Ayun.

Embarassing moment happened to me that night as we go home, ayun nalublob ang paa ko sa putikan! Err. At take note, yung shoes na suot ko pa nun is once or twice ko pa lang nasusuot since we bought it. 'Pag minamalas ka nga naman! Kainis naman kasi yung manong eh, he looks like a hold-upper kaya! Ikaw ba naman sundan at yung mga tingin kakaiba siyempre di ka ba magpa-panic nun? And it's already late na rin. Hays! Malas! But I thank God 'cause I got home safe ;)

Busy?

2007-11-21T16:30:00.000-08:00

Yes, the whole week! Err. So many school activities to do and what makes me more panic is the scriptwriting class. Next week, I'll be having this reporting on Philippine Literature and take note it's on Monday na! I'll be away from home this Saturday and maybe until Sunday so I need to rush for the preparation of my report.. So there. I'm already a dead meat and to think of it's only the start of this crazy stuffs. Goodluck on me ;)

I saw Ponkie last Monday, all I can say is I miss him a lot :) And I saw Trin too. Yehey! I miss her more, she's not enrolled this sem. I'm hoping that she'll be on my birthday ^__^

I wanna thank Ate MM for saving me. Hahaha. She knows already what it is all about :)

That's all :D Oh by the way, I'll be posting a late post about the move that we've watched last week. Ayun. And sana maganda yung Gone in the wind (ba yun?).. :)

"Gotta speak my mind.

Gotta open up to you this time..

I can't let you slip away, tonight.."

horror-rible :)

2007-11-16T20:00:00.000-08:00

Arggh! Vincent sent me this very horrible pic of us! I looked soooo UGLYNESS here! Hahaha:D Pft! Darn this crappy pic. Just want you to know how horrible my look before. Hahahaha. As I saw it, can't help myself but to laugh until I fart .. Hahaha. OA. But anyway, ang panget ko talaga dito! Hahaha!

Thank You :)

2007-11-15T18:30:00.000-08:00

Hey! Yow! Thanks everyone for the greeting. Oyea. 18 na ako! Wahaaha. As Kate turns 18 today, she said that "pwde na ako makulong". Hahaha. Kunek? Anyway, thanks again people ;) Wheeww! I feel the love.. Hahaha.

So there.

2007-11-07T17:00:00.000-08:00

Before anything else, I would like to greet all the November birthday celebrants, including me! Cheers! Haha. So there, it was Abby's birthday today. Happy Birthday man! And advance to Heleb na rin :) Thanks for your advance greeting :)

Anyway, second semester for this year already started. And my first day? Ugh. Boring. Well, as usual some of the professors are like students who doesn't want to attend the first meeting :) And so I went somewhere with Red, watched the 30 days of night. How was the movie? Uhmm, ayos lang. Sayang pera din. Hahaha. I thought maganda siya pero hindi naman pala.

Ayun. Speaking of movie. I am planning to watch One More Chance kaso no one wants to go with me. I already asked Jecca and Mille to go with me and they said "Yes" but the schedule complicates us. We are in different courses kasi and different schedule na rin. So there. Ah bahala na :) May kasama o wala I'm going to watch it. It'll be shown after my birthday naman, so gift ko na sa sarili ko yun dahil I won't be able to go to Boracay! Argh! Wtf. Hell yes, kadramahan ang movie na yun. And so? Hahaha. I'm a drama queen remember? Lol.

Bevs and Amie are already enrolled. Thank God. Hoping that I'll be having lots of money next week kasi birthday ko na and honestly speaking, wala pa talaga ako balak kung san ko feel mag-celebrate at that exact day of mine. Why oh why? Blanko isip ko. Haha.

Do I look like I have a problem? What I mean is kapag nakikita niyo ako? (not through what I wrote ah). Wala lang. They always asked me if I'm depressed, or do I have any problems ba. Hay susme. Sinong may problema? Ako? Oh c'mon. WALA AKONG PROBLEMA. KUNG MERON MAN PERA LANG YUN. Hahaha. Enough said!

Oh by the way, I'm having this urge to really study hard. Hahaha. As I received my grades the past few weeks, I can totally say that I AM NOT SATISFIED WITH IT! I'm not a type of person who's greedy with grades or loves to compete ah? Wala lang. Hindi lang talaga ako satisfied. I got GP, for me it's already a failing grade. I got EP too which means INCOMPLETE. What the fcuk happened with me?? I'm not blaming anyone here. TINAMAD lang talaga siguro ako last sem. Hahaha. Well, BABAWI ako! BABAWI TALAGA AKO!!

There's gotta be more...

2007-11-04T00:00:00.000-07:00

Masyado ng maraming nangyayaring kung ano sa buhay ko ngayon. May masaya pero mas marami ang kalungkutan. Ayun. Ganoon lang talaga ang buhay. Alam ko, marami pang darating at sa takdang panahon na iyon, alam kong mas masakit, mabigat at mas challenging yun. Kailangan ko lang ng motivation para maging positive ulit sa mga bagay-bagay at lakas ng loob na rin para harapin ang mga dapat harapin. Sa edad kong ito, madali akong sumuko pero ano? Ayun buhay pa ako! Hahaha. Mahal lang talaga ako ni God at hindi pa ako ganoon kabait (para kay God) para sumuko na lang ng ganoon. Wala eh, weather-weather lang talaga ang buhay. "There's gotta be more to life" ika nga ni Stacie Orrico.

Oo, alam ko masakit. Makasakit ng tao lalo na yung mahalaga sa'yo, sa buhay mo. Pero hindi ko naman sinasadya yun. It's meant to happen nga kumbaga. Minsan akala ko, ok na ako. Wala na, hindi na masakit. Pero mali pala ako, andiyan pa rin pala yung sakit. Pero duda ako, it's all in the mind talaga. Kung iisipin kong masakit, masakit talaga. Kung iisipin kong malalampasan ko lahat ng ito, malalampasan ko talaga. Kailangan ko lang talaga manalig at magpakatatag. Sarili ko na lang ang makakatulong sa akin ngayon. Ayoko na magpatalo sa sakit na binibigay ng buhay. Yun nga lang, sana maging motivated ako. Wish ko lang di ba? Kaya yan. Sabi nga ni Miss Raya, "Fighting".. Ayun.

Ano bang point ko dito? Wala naman kung tutuusin. Gusto ko lang sabihin na hindi talaga ganoon kadali ang buhay. Hindi lahat may happy ending. Pero, paano magiging happy ang ending kung ending na nga yon?? Labo di ba? But there's GOOD in GOOD-byes. Kaya nga maganda ang sunset kesa sa sunrise eh. Gets? Ayos! Sabay na lang tayo sa agos ng buhay. Malay mo? Malay ko? Malay natin mas magiging maganda ang offer ng life sa mga susunod na kabanata ng buhay natin di ba? Eh di maganda. Basta, be ready, be strong, be brave, be HAPPY..

Hindi lahat ay sa atin.. Hindi naman lahat pag-aari natin. Lahat pinahiram lang ng Panginoon para bigyan tayo ng hint kung ano ba talaga ang bigay-aral ng buhay. Buhay nga naman parang buhay na buhay sa pagsubok :)

Kaya yan.. Fighting!!

P.S.
Karen, salamat nga pala sa kanta na binigay mo kahit hindi mo alam yun. Hahaha. Natutuwa talaga ako sa tugtugin na iyon. Ayun.

CONDOLENCE TO SAN MIGUEL FAMILY.

Life is obviously NOT FAIR ON ME..

2007-10-29T13:30:00.000-07:00

I already finished voting for SK. It made me pissed somehow 'cause we kinda have a hard time to find my name and my brother's name too. Even my Mom got mad to those officials 'cause they told us that they don't even have a database record or lists. And there's this teenage girl who makes "sagot" to my Mom. She was "bastos" 'cause my Mom asked a permission to them to see the list, then she said, "eh amin lang toh eh.." Errr!! Is she the only voter there? Is her name only in the list? Wtf!

Anyway, just want to make an update with regard to my birthday celebration. Yes, matutuloy na siya :))

P.S
Sometimes, I feel like I'm a least priority in everything. Hays! Just a simple favor or wishes, parang mahirap pa para matupad o mangyari. Buhay nga naman! "L" on my forehead! T___T

Sometimes, only one person is missing.. But the world is empty.

2007-10-25T16:30:00.000-07:00

I miss school.
I miss the field.
I miss the library.
I miss the canteen.
I miss the classrooms.
I miss the professors.
I miss the students.
I miss the laughs.
I miss the jokes.
I miss the bondings.

Till when I'll be bored like this?

Still have 1 week and a half to be a pain in the ass :P

I want a vacation! ^_^ I need a break. Isn't a vacation already? Hindi pa talaga!

Boredom kills me, but then I made something that I think really worth my time rather than spending the whole day thinking what went wrong.

I made a new layout :) Sinipag lang :D

One week to go and it's already November.. Hope things will be better next month, because that's my month. Haha.

La la la la.

2007-10-23T12:00:00.000-07:00

"Ever wonder why the sunset is a lot colorful than the sunrise?

That's one of the ironies of life -- that there's good in good-byes :) "

Got it from Thea ^_^

Read. Read.

2007-10-21T14:30:00.000-07:00

I have a few announcement with regard to my upcomoing birthday party (sana). Haha. As usual, it's cancelled. Mom asked me if we were going to pursue the event, and I said, "it's up to you and tita". And she said, "wag na lang anak, gahol na sa oras." Fine. Hehehe. It's ok to me :) kaso nga lang, I already invited few of my friends,

so if you're one of my friends who received the invitation of mine via text or personally, sorry sweetie it's cancelled.

Sorry for the inconvenience. Hehehe. But I'm going to receive gifts (if there is). Hehehe.

Anyway, as I saw the trailer of One More Chance, I texted Jecca and invited her to watch it. Haha. And her reply, "Sabay pa kayo ni Mil nang-imbita". lol. Ganoon talaga kapag ____________. (Yun na). Hahaha.

Waaaah! Nakakahiya, nang-imbita ako tapos hindi matutuloy. Huhu. Excited kasi. Sorry folks :((

"If you can't solve it, then it's reality.."

???

2007-10-18T09:30:00.000-07:00

Still bothered by these emptiness! Whew! Parang nasa kawalan lang.

"You know why that someone pity you? YOU act like you need it."
-Jude

Maybe so. But there's something that I really wanna feel. But the catch is, I don't know what it is.. Want to feel that feeling but not the pity itself..

Comfort.
Appreciation.
Attention.
Love.
Care.
Happiness.

.....

2007-10-17T10:00:00.000-07:00

Kaya ko naman eh.

There's no need to pity me!

I can be the one..

2007-10-14T13:30:00.000-07:00

"When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one"

Kid me.

2007-10-13T21:30:00.000-07:00

One month to go before my 18^th Birthday! Weee! Excited na ako. Speaking of birthday, I don’t know if I will have a celebration like a traditional one because I don’t want to and we don’t have money. But as I went to my Aunt’s house, she was shocked to find out that I’ll be turning 18 this coming month (November), so she asked if I’m going to have a celebration or what, I said “no” of course. Why? “Ayaw ko kasi walang pera si Mommy ngayon eh.”, I said. “Eh di ako gagastos.” Aunt said. “Oh sige :))” I said. Cool isn’t? Well, it’s not yet final because I still need to think. Haha. Bahala na :) I need a sign..

Anyway, I have this love for kids talaga. Hehe. As I scanned my old box, I saw some letters from my beloved and dearest little cousins from Bicol :) I was so touched when I read them, who would’ve thought they’ll going to send me a letter right? Hehe.

Ghert’s niece Jhena gave a letter too,

Aww sweet :) She’s going to celebrate her birthday this Monday at her school, I am invited but unfortunately I’m not going there, it’s a children’s party anyway. Yeah I know I always act like a child, call my friends “Ate” because I’m the bunso in the group and even call my two brothers Kuya even though I am the eldest. Hehe. I love the way I act, but don’t get me wrong with this, I act that way but it doesn’t mean that I’m a child when it comes to problems ha? :) I love the baby talk lang and I love it when people treated me as a baby somehow. Weee!

KLSP

2007-10-09T20:34:00.000-07:00

I feel like there’s something in me that makes me feel empty. I don’t know what it is. I wanna feel complete, why don’t I try centrum? Haha. Is that a joke? Lol. Anyway, I wanna go to the beach and do some emo thing. Owell, according to Jude, EMO GAY. Haha. And so I am :)

I always laugh like there’s no tomorrow.

I always seek for something which I don’t know what it is all about.

I always let myself be disappointed in little things.

I always let negative things run in my mind.

I feel the sadness when the moon is up, even when I didn’t see the stars.

Why everytime I go to bed, I can’t help myself but to think the reasons that will surely hit my heart and break it into pieces?

Why I act like this?

Tah-tuh!

Special. Special

2007-10-06T21:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I’m really wondering how it feels to be special. Yes, I know I’m special in some ways because my friends let me feel that I’m special, my family does too and he does too. But there’s something inside me, that I really wanted to feel how special, special is.

Boo!

shine through me.

2007-09-28T01:16:00.000-07:00

Where are the stars?
Why they didn't shine on me?

Laugh it off then let it go.

How I wish it's so simple and easy to do.

There's no easy way anyway.

Who said there is?

"Just because you can't say something out loud, it doesn't mean you don't want to say it. In fact, you really want to but consequences can be damning and so, even if you desperately want to tell someone something, you opt to keep it to yourself." Kate said. Wheew!

I'll see you soon babe! Let's have a serious talk sometimes. Lol.

depressive chuvaness.

2007-09-25T01:30:00.000-07:00

"I wish there's some kind of time limit on emotions. Sort of like classes, a bell that would ring at the beginning and at the end. That way, you would know when to stop feeling bad.."

Updates.

2007-09-18T12:00:00.000-07:00

Updates. Updates.

I miss blogging, but then I'm trying to find time to blog anything (as in anything).

Photo Exhibit is already done. Thank God it's successful. Next stop, the documentary. It looks like I'm not interested at all on that part. Why? I don't know. Maybe I'm not into video editing lang talaga. The DEADline is on October. So what's the date today? Haha:D

Let me share this thought:
"Stranger is a friend you never met"

Cute? :D

Come on, let's take a rest. Chill :)

Till next post ^_^

Chance.

2007-09-12T01:00:00.000-07:00

Everyone always had their chance. The problem is, we just let that chance pass us by. And worst, we just take it for granted. So what will you do about it? Go and take that chance. Who might knows? It'll be your last chance. Then you'll just realize, it's almost TOO LATE not to take that chance at all.

Just a thought. Part 2

2007-09-09T18:00:00.000-07:00

"You know what lonely means? It's when you go to sleep at night without anyone to say I Love You. And when you wake up, you open your eyes. You realize nothing change. You're still alone and you're still a friend to him.."
- Sanchai.

"What is sad about loving someone? Is when you're not good enough because somebody else still occupies his mind and heart and you know you just can't compete.."
- Kate

"You don't wanna let go cos you feel that there's something sweet going on between the two of you. Something beyond words. Something that only your heart understands. You wait and wait. But still, nothing happened. He's glued to the spot. Problem is, you just can't walk away, but you can't stay either."
- Bry

Online Schooling

2007-09-06T13:00:00.000-07:00

I thought it's Friday today. Excited? Haha:D

While I was in Bathroom awhile ago, I'm thinking about the online schooling. What I mean is, schooling through online. Wala lang. See how technology can do today? Whoa. Who would've thought you can go schooling through online (well of course you can only access to it with the use of internet and computer)? I think it's not a good idea. Why oh why? Iba pa rin kasi yung interaction with people personally rather than online and you can enjoy studying more if you get to see and bonded with your classmates and professors.

Yes it is advantage for those students who are in Home Study Program or students who didn't want to attend the school but it is more disadvantage for those students who are not computer literate. Yes we are in digital era nowadays but NOT ALL people in this goddamn Philippines are computer literate or can afford to buy one. Lucky me and those people who are computer literate.

Wala lang, just want to share my opinions with regard to it.

Oh by the way, I do really love Slick Rick, Sam Y G, and Toni2x show in Magic 89.9. Why? Well, try to tuned in then find it out by yourselves. Haha:D

Tah-tuh!

Bahala na.

2007-09-03T12:00:00.000-07:00

Okay, pa-blog muna! Haha;D I'm here at the library. Supposedly, I'm going to read my report then study it but then again I REALLY CAN'T UNDERSTAND IT. Ewan ko. Hindi gumagana utak ko ngayon. I'm with Gino, nagbabaka-sakaling matulungan niya ako sa problema ko pero imbes na tulungan ako, pinangaralan pa ako sa report ko! Haha:D hindi rin niya kasi maintindihan! Amp. Anyway, wala. Bahala na si God. Bahala na sa report ko mamaya. Bahala na si Miss Fidelino kung ipapasa niya ba ako sa reporting o hindi. Bahala na ako kung i-titake 2 ko ang subject na "Economics". Bahala na kung ano ang kalalabasan ng report ko. Bahala na kung GP ang remarks ko! Well, that's life. I'm not genius nor smart. I'm just an average student who sometimes can't really understand things the way they are. Labo.

Birthday nga pala ni Amie ngayon! Hello Amie. Happy Birthday! ^___^

Cynelly and Landria :D

2007-08-28T16:00:00.000-07:00

A big big thanks to Landria for submitting a wonderful photo of ours. It really made me laugh when I saw it. Then I found out that we had so many photos pala sa account niya. Oyeah. Coolness :] It was taken during summer vacation when we met :P awww! Mwuaah! Love you babe ^__^ I'll see you soon again. Thanks for lending me your phone during the party of Karen :) I do really love the pic of ours. Soooo cute :D

nyakk!

cynel landria sanchai

kailangan namin siyang i-rotate counterclockwise. lol

kissssshh! :-*

oyea. cuteness :D

this pic really made me laugh. can't believe that we had a shot like this ;P

Everywhere.

2007-08-23T12:00:00.000-07:00

I was with Jecca yesterday. We went at Ever then to Sm fairview just to buy something to wear for Acquaintance Party. Since I had a dress na, we bought a clothes for her only. And oh, I bought something din pala but then I realized its just a waste of money kasi wala lang. Trip ko lang siyang bilhin. Haha:D I really wanted to buy some clothes kaso I couldn't see what I really wanted to see. Get it? Check out the pics we had. We love the Red Hot's fitting room. So big and so pink. Lol.

P.S.
And everywhere we go, we always hear the song "It Only Reminds Me of You". Hahaha:D

Fun. Great. Blast. Cool.

2007-08-19T21:03:00.000-07:00

I attended Karen's Debut yesterday which was held at Camelot Hotel. I enjoyed the night cos I was able to see my high school friends. I was more surprised when I saw Christian (Boo) cos it's really been a long long while since we met and talked too. The reason why we weren't able to talk is because his phone got lost (I think someone stole it). Ashley was there too with Alfred (with my surprise of course), so I accompany them for a while cos Ash texted me to go down for them to have a company, and so I did. I feel a bit of disappointed because Cham wasn't able to go. The reason? Her tita did not allow her to go. Bad. Khym wasn't there too because there's a family emergency happened. I was expecting to see her too. But I do hope that her dad is alright right now.

I really enjoyed the night and it was really a blast to consider. Well, as usual I do oh not I, WE (I'm sorry) do the camwhoring with most of my girlfriends :) And I love it. I really miss them to tidbits and it's pretty quite obvious.

Oh by the way, before I go to the party, Steph went here to change clothes and I considered her as an "influence" to my mom. Because, I wasn't supposed to wear the gown that I used in the party. I was supposed to wear the dress that my Aunt lend me. And so I don't have any choice but to wear the gown that they're insisting me to wear instead of arguing with that nonsense stuffs. So there.

I was kinda annoyed to the cameraman who keeps on focusing his camera to us (table no. 4) but I have nothing to do with it, who might knows that he loves to video us. Lol. Feeling? Whatever :]

When the 18 Treasures turns, I can't really help myself but to get nervous. I really had this stage-fright especially public speaking. When I was called, I was really chilling and thank God cos when I spoke, my voice was normal and it's not obvious that I'm nervous. And I am more thankful when I ended my speech and went back to my place. Haha.

After the formal party, the dance party starts. Oyeah! And guess what? I am excited to dance and groove on the dance floor. Haha:D I became more alive when most of my classmates danced too. We really had fun grooving and teasing on the dance floor. I envy them when they did the ramp modelling in the stage. Haha:D I was with julie kasi do the chatting moment and when I wanted to be on stage, they're already done. Oh yea, my bad, I know.

Jade invited me to go to her house with most of my classmates. It looks like "after-party" event there. I really wanted to but we have this family affair in the morning so I wasn't be able to go with them.

So there, there are lots of moments happened and I kinda feel lazy to tell all of them :] sorry. But anyway, I'll post some pics. To see all the pics just go to my multiply site and poof you'll see the pictures regarding with that event. There you go..

Oh by the way, while I'm waiting for Steph, I did some camwhoring. Photo shoots lang kunwari. Lol. And the results? Great (for me :]).

Blogthings, anyone?

2007-08-18T10:30:00.000-07:00

I blog hopped, and poof! Saw this blogthing :) Since I'm bored, I tried some tests and see if it's true, well it really is. Lol.

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.
For you, comfort and calm are very important.You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack,I've been too long, I'm glad to be back"
Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos.But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

What's" Your Theme Song?

You Are a Red Crayon

Your world is colored with bright, vivid, wild colors.You have a deep, complex personality - and you are always expressing something about yourself.Bold and dominant, you are a natural leader. You have an energy that is intense... and sometimes overwhelming.Your reaction to everything tends to be strong. You are the master of love-hate relationships.
Your color wheel opposite is green. Green people are way too mellow to understand what drives your energy.

What Color Crayon Are You?

You Are 45% Open

You are a fairly open person, but you also like to maintain your privacy.You definitely will tell all (okay, almost all) to your closest friends...But strangers and acquaintances only get a peek into your life.

"How Open Are You?

Not a Jealous Bone in Your Body

You're secure, trusting, and giving with friends and loversAnd while you may have been hurt before, you've bounced backYou're generally happy with your life - and no one's grass is greener than yoursOne word of caution: some may see your lack of jealousy as indifference!

Are You A Jealous Woman?

*pa-comment lang dito huh? hindi ata totoo toh. lol*

You Sometimes Hold a Grudge

You aren't exactly vengeful, but you're not going to forget when someone wrongs you.And while you'll forgive the small things, you don't hand out too many second chances to people who really screw up.

Do You Hold a Grudge?

Your Travel Personality Is: Easygoing

When you travel, you're looking for a lot of downtime. Vacations are your chance to recoup.All you need is a scenic spot and plenty of time on your hands. You'll figure out the rest.You're not one to make lots of plans when you travel. You just follow whatever path seems right.

What's" Your Travel Personality?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence

Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes.You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time.You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it.Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds.
You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

You Are 70% Grown Up, 30% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

Ah yeah! I'm bored that's why I took them. And the results? Great :) Oh by the way, today's the celebration of Karen's debut and it's raining hard, my mom asked me if I'll still go there or not. The answer? Yes, I have to. I wanna see my high school friends ;) that's it.

Gabing Madilim

2007-08-17T10:00:00.000-07:00

I'm bored and it kinda kills me. I miss school, I miss the students, I miss the field, I miss the guards, I miss the canteen, I miss everything! Lol. Drama? So I'm here sitting on this chair, facing the monitor, and typing some thoughts that barely comes out on my mind. It's been a while since I had a post that I could say, it really had "sense". Does it? Oh yeah, not kidding..

Yes, the class for today was cancelled again due to typhoon and to tell you honestly I'm not happy with it. Why oh why? No allowance at all. I'm being too demented on that cancel of classes issue. Haha. Exagge.

Oh anyway, I want to edit some pictures but my creativity is not working. Arggh!

The moon is up.
Stars are so dull.
Waiting for your call
As I wish I had it all.

The streets are empty.
As I am lonely.
Listening for a song,
While missing you for so long..

Thinking so many thoughts,
that my heart was caught.

I wanna have you.
I don't want to be apart from you.
Just be with me,
Stay with me..

Too many walls?

2007-08-16T13:30:00.000-07:00

Let me share some photos taken yesterday (August 15, 2007) with my liitle cousins (Rj and Rica) and my dearest friends :)

Yesterday was Karen's Birthday (real birthdate), I called her to tell that I'll be late on her celebration of debut this coming Saturday cos I need to attend our "acquaintance party". Sayang kasi nakalimutan niya akong itext kahapon para dumaan sa bahay nila at kumain. Haha:D

I'm thinking if I'll be on Landria's birthday celebration this Friday cos I have class til 530pm and the party will start at around 2 or 3pm I guess. I'll think about it, then Gergene told me that Landria had this request on me. And guess what? I need to bring a boylet for her party. Ano yun? Lol. Who will I bring? Magararo? Hahaha:D Just kidding. She might kill me if she read it anyway :) So there.

THAT'S IT. NAIINIS AKO KASI SUSPENDED NA NAMAN ANG KLASE PERO ANO BA ANG PANAHON NGAYON DITO SA QUEZON CITY? MAARAW AT HINDI UMUULAN. ANO YUN JOKE? HAYS! SAYANG ANG ARAW SA ESKWELA :P

Oh by the way, I'm loving the song "I'll be there for you" BY Martin Nievera (I guess so). It's a nice song. I love the melody and I feel inlove. Lol.

Happy Birthday Hans.
Happy Birthday Karen.
Happy Birthday Marc.

Moon on the water.

2007-08-14T08:00:00.000-07:00

Full moon sways

Gently in the night of one fine day

On my way

Looking for a moment with my dear

Full moon waves Slowly on the surface of the lake

You are there S

miling in my arms for all those years

What a fool!

I don't know about tomorrow

What it's like to be

Ah~

I was sure

'Couldn't let myself to go

Even though I feel

The end

Oh my fair...

Floating like a bird that's in her wings

You are there

Smiling in my arms for all those years

What a fool!

I don't know about tomorrow

What it's like to be

Ah~

I was sure

'Couldn't let myself to go

Even though I feel

The end

Full moon sways

Gently in the night of one fine day

You are there

Smiling in my arms for all those years

And so I'm starting to like the song :) It was introduced by Mercy anyway. But I do like most is the guy version of it, so calm and peaceful. Relaxing though. That's it :)

Ok.

2007-08-10T21:00:00.000-07:00

PRESSURE, here it goes. Err.

Documentary.
Short film.
Photo Exhibit.
Research papers.
Reportings.
Extra Curricular Activities.
PAYMENTS.
Exams.

Wahahay! Nakaka-stress na ito. Lol. I can do it. We can do it. That's the spirit, just enjoy the stuffs and be dedicated on it. Yeahba! Support me folks :) I know wala pa ito sa kalahati ng pagka-busy busyhan ng iba pero ayun wala lang. Hehe. Sus, kaya yan! Pananalig lang kailangan diyan. I know God will help me, He won't leave me.

Anyway, just want to share some photos from Tahanang Walang Hagdan. They are our focus on dokyu and photo exhibit :) Thanks to them.

Tinypic not working right now. I'm having a hard time to upload pics, so I used blogger instead. There you go. Hope you could see the pics. Haha:D so liit. Sabog. Anyway, gotta bounce.

Happy Birthday Ichietot. I miss you dude!

A message for a dear friend of mine.

2007-08-09T17:30:00.000-07:00

"And any time you feel the pain..

Don't carry the world upon your shoulders

Well don't you know that its a fool who plays it cool

By making their world a little colder "

-Hey Jude

Hindi ako nang-aasar sa lagay na toh. Blee=p You know who you are. Haha:D I'm here, always here, we're always here for you to cheer you up. Handa kami gumawa ng mundo na puno ng pagmamahal para sa'yo. Hahaha;D quote? Lol. Cheer up. Life is unfair but then, still beautiful. GOD LOVES US SO MUCH ^_^

Relaks. Take it easy darling.

Hey!

2007-08-09T14:00:00.000-07:00

Bakit hindi ko makita yung bagong layouts ko? Err. Hindi ko makita yung changes na ginawa ko dito :( hays labo.

Wupp.

2007-08-08T09:00:00.000-07:00

"If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"

I just heard this song at Mo Twister's show in Magic and I could say that I love the lyrics. Ano naman ngayon? Joke :)

The classes was suspended 'cause of "storm" daw and it's not okay to me. Haha:D even though I really don't have class for today 'cause it's the Feast of St. Dominic, still I have plans for today and it's cancelled to. Tsk. But the good thing about raining is that the dam will be filled of water. So ok na rin sa akin yun para may tubig :)

I was with Red yesterday, wala lang. Picture-picture lang ^_^

Gotta bounce. Inaantok pa ako! Ciao!

There you go.

2007-08-07T12:00:00.000-07:00

During the seat-in moment in History class:

Maja: Oh sino naman yang sinusulat mong pangalan?
Zoe: Ah wala, wag mo ng tignan. Hehe.
Maja: Sino yan boyfriend mo?
Zoe: Hindi ah.
Maja: Ex mo?
Zoe: Oo. Hehe. Ewan ko ba bat ko naisulat. Haha:D
Maja: So kayo na ni Cute?
Zoe: Oo, kaso hindi niya alam. Haha:D
Maja: Gago! Eh di pag nalaman niya, break na kayo?
Zoe: Anong break? Hindi noh! Hindi ako papayag! I won't give up. I'll fight for him. Lol.
Maja: Ahh okay! Utot mo! Lakas ng trip. Haha:D
Zoe: Inaantok na kasi ako. Hahaha:D

*****

Weird feeling as it always. Can't help myself but to laugh until I fart. Lol. Well, what can I say? I'm a happy, joyful, cheerful person and laughing is my passion in a sense that it made me blooming and glowing inside. Haha:D gulo. Who knows it would be my last chance to thank the people who always made me smile (in short, they never forget to make me laugh and smile)? Farewell? No.

I'll be busy as I always say. Yeah, seriously I'll be. I have to do my reports (na tambak na talaga), the short film, the documentary, the presentation, and other school stuffs. And hopefully, at that time the studio tour won't be scheduled on my busy days.

Thank God 'cause he did give me a break for about 3 days and I don't think it'll worth it, well it depends on m on how will I make it the worth one. I'm being so mean for quite some time and it's normal to me. Let's just say that it's the evil part of me. Haha:D Lately, I'm missing my little cousins, I wanna see them and do some childy-stuffs. Ah yes, I'm childish and as Julie said, "grow up babe!". Haha:D Minsan lang maging bata ang isang tao kaya ini-enjoy ko lang siya :) I'm not that old, I'm still a teen but sometimes I act not like on my age. I knew it :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

2007-08-05T14:21:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to the ff: (August Celebrants)

JADE. [Oh well. Akala ko papa-inom ka! Lol.]
GHERT. [Hey there! Haha:D labyu!]
IRON. [waaah! ]
KHYM. [Hey you biatch! Haha;D I miss you a lot :( can't wait to see you again. Weee.]
ICHIE. [Mare! Haha:D miss na kita. Ingat parati. Lapit na bday ko! Ang usapan.]
DON. [Alam mo bang may isang taong nagtatampo sa'yo? Haha:D guess who dude!]
KAREN. [Hey! Hinihintay kita dito sa bahay! Hindi ka naman pumunta!]
HANS. [Kelan ka ba uuwi? Haha:D miss ka na ng f4! Yeah boi! :)]
MARC. [Hello! It's been a long time na! Haha:D]
LANDRIA. [Hey sam! Haha:D I have lots of chika to you! Weee. I'll see you soon.]
STEPH. [Tep! Wala lang :) labyu!]
JENNYLYN. [Mwuaah! Pakain ka na! :)]
GRACE. [Naku sweety! MIss you!]
YNA. [Waah! Babe, I miss you a lot. La na ako balita sayo :(]
PAPA. [Happy birthday papa! Labyu]
VANNAH. [Hey vhang! :) wee. tc.]
ATE EMZ. [pool party huh? :p]
KUYA RODERICK. [tc po! we'll see you soon again :)]

P.S. Dates of birthdays are arranged accordingly :)

It won't change (I guess so)..

2007-08-03T19:42:00.000-07:00

"Ayoko nga kasi magpa-register sa mga ganyan.. Wala namang mangyayari sa Pilipinas eh. Ganoon pa din yun. May mga trapong pulitiko, mataas man o mababa ang posisyon. Mas gusto ko pa matulog. Wala akong panahon sa mga ganyang bagay!!"

That's what I told my mom as she woke me up! Haha:D I'm so irritated at that time cos I told Ate don't wake me up early in the morning for the reason of that shit crap or whatever you call it. Ok, call me Bratt or so nonsense girl or no care at all basta I find it so annoying lang. Wala naman talaga mangyayari eh. Ewan ko. Malay natin. Labo.

Just because of that "register" thing, nasira araw ko! Haha:D not actually nasira, nakakatuwa lang na may halong inis. Basta unforgettable kumbaga :P

Ok so there, I and Rb met up at McDo Philcoa, ayun feel niya lang na samahan ako kaso hindi riin nangyari but we did meet. Hehe:P he dropped me by lang sa City Hall then went back home cos he's going to a despedida of his friend ata? Ayun. Nice guy! Thanks for the ride :)

As I went at City Hall, the girl told me, "Iha, wala nang form eh. Sa Baranggay niyo na lang ikaw mag-register.." Reaction: Whattt? Pagkatapos akong gisingin ng maaga at pagalitan ng aking butihing ina at iwan ng kaibigan ko yun lang mangyayari? Wtf. Crap! Lol. Wala nangyari na. (Sa isip-isip ko lang yan huh? Hehe:p)

Oh tapos e di ayun, as usual I went home na lang then texted my mom that I'm not registered yet cos of blaa blaa blaa. Tas akala ko okay na, hindi na niya ako kukulitin ulit but I was TOTALLY wrong! Tsk. Ayun she texted me nah, ask your uncle where you can registered and so on and so forth. Shitness! Kainis. E di bihis ulit pang-alis, hanggang sa wala talaga akong makasama at walang birth certificate nagtext si Mommy, "Sige, bukas na lang. Hanggang kailan daw ba yan?" Text naman ako ng, "Wala na daw bukas eh. Hanggang ngayon na lang daw po!" Take note, tuwa pa ako ng sinabi ko yan :) tas biglang text nanaman ng, "Anak, tignan mo nga sa drawer ni mami yung mga envelope diyan tas tignan mo kung andoon yung mga birth certificate niyo.." Ayun! Tapos ang maliligayang sandali. Nakita ko nga ang mga pinapahanap! Haha:D

So ayun, punta ako Manggahan para magpa-register, malas lang talaga siguro ako sa araw na ito dahil... "Ay Ineng, naubusan na kasi ng form eh. Balik ka na lang bukas ng umaga huh? Magdala ka ng kopya ng Birth Certificate mo.." Anoooooooo??? Hays! Wala na akong nasabi kundi, "is this my day today?" Oh tapos ayun nag-aantay na lang ako ng bus papuntang Sm Fairview. Until I rode a jeep (na lang) at nang bigla kong maalala na "Ay Tang***. Naiwan ko yung pambayad ng ilaw. Tanga!" Hanggang sa bumaba ako ng FCM at umuwi ulit. Haha:D malas lang nga talaga! Araw ko nga ngayon! Tas ayun tawanan lang kami ni Ate sa mga nangyari sakin tas balik na ako SM ulit hanggang sa may isang lalaki na pinagkamalan pa ata akong KA-EYEBALL niya! Haha:D Kamusta naman siya di ba?

Ayun lang. Gotta bounce. I have exam pa tomorrow! Mwuaah!

Salamat na rin hindi ako na-bankrupt :P

GREETINGS.

2007-07-30T22:00:00.000-07:00

"Sooner or later you'll start taking yourself seriously. You'll know when you need a break, you'll know what to get worked up about and what to get rid of. You'll do something that makes you stronger and more complete, because you know it's never too late to have a life and never too late to change one.."

There you go! Problems! problems! Never na siguro nawalan ng problema ang tao! Paano kung wala ng bukas? Paano kung pag-gising mo iba na pala mga kasama mong tao? Labo. Basta I'm looking forward na maayos na lahat. Family, everything! Help me God.

I just wanna say thank you to Julie and Bry for the time :) Ahh yeah! Haha:D I miss you guys! Till next time alright? Mwuaah! Bry, sorry kung pinagtritripan ka namin ni Julie. Akala mo hindi kami close? oh c'mon. HahaXD Babe, thank you for the time and sa picture-picture. I love it. Swear!

Oh by the way, as I entered the classroom kanina, I unexpectedly hit Ponkie's arms. Why? Wala lang. Naiinis lang ako! Haha:D well, at least he didn't get mad at me instead he laughs at me and keep on asking what happened to me. Haha;D

I learned a lot today and I'm hoping that those things will run in my mind and will be applied too. Sana lang talaga. I enjoyed the conversation with Ponkie kanina with some friends. Ahh yeah! Dami kong nalaman na basta. Haha:D salamat ng marami :) thanks din sa mga kantang may lyrics na pang-asar ^_^ I love your Innova! LOLXD

Thanks to Lawrence for the admiration. Haha:D akalain mo yun? Joke. Takecare. Thanks in advance for the book that I'm requesting. Hehe :P

Thanks to my dear Veronica [jecca] for the kalokohan na ka-ewanan :) sige, tamang-asar ka din eh. Haha:D mwuaah!

Thanks to Mallow [Au] for everything. Even though we're very far you still try to help me and as you said, "I'm always around". Haha:D sorry kung busy mode ako minsan :)

****

As the day, month, year that will pass by, I know that everything happens for a reason. I know God has a better plan why He let this and that thing happen and I'm hoping in that sense that He won't let my path be in a wrong way or my self-esteem be super low.

Life is a constant cycle of loving, breaking, and living again.

Sana lang talaga kayanin ko lahat ng trials. Sana maayos na lahat ng dapat maayos! I know I'm blogging for more than 2 years and counting and never akong nagbanggit ng family problems, it's too private lang talaga. Sana maayos na!

Help me God.

take a break.

2007-07-30T06:31:00.000-07:00

anything goes.

2007-07-27T21:00:00.000-07:00

Updates again ;] what's new with it? I think nobody wants to read whatever crap I write =p

Errr! I'm being too emotional on what I watched last night. HahaXD guess what? I cried over that koreanovela! Lol. But hey, it really worth my tears. I really hate the LETTING GO part! Alam mo yun? Why would you set someone free or let them go if you really love them di ba? Wala lang. ;)

Things are getting weird as the day pass by. Tsk. I have this feeling talaga na basta! Labo? Basta, ayoko masabihan ng feeling eh. But it didn't irritate me somehow, naiilang siguro pwede pa? Ayun.

I WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE. YUN PWEDENG MAGMUNI-MUNI!!

I saw Barbie today but I didn't saw Soulmate, I know he's sick! Well, get well soon boi :P

NAWAWALAN NA NAMAN AKO NG GANA SA LAHAT! NAMAN TALAGA!

WE'RE EXCITED KASI MAGKAKA-BABY NA KAMI! [I'M NOT PREGNANT OK?] XD

MAY THE SOUL OF MR. JOEL AKA STRAWHATLUFFIE REST IN PEACE! CONDOLENCE TO HIS FAMILY.

I'm inlove ;]

2007-07-26T11:00:00.000-07:00

Yes! I'm inlove. LOLXD I'm inlove with nature! I think I have this passion for photography na talaga. Though I'm not that good in it, basta if I saw how cool and beautiful the view is, I took a snapshot of it :) hays! Can't help myself but to amaze on the beauty of it.

P.S. Other pics will be posted soon. Photobucket works really slow! Can't upload too much pictures. As well as the Laptop is so slow :P

xXxXxXx

May I quote the line from "Which Star are you from?":

Angeline: Nahihirapan na ako.

Ayun lang. Haha:D it's not that nahihirapan na ako! Ewan ko why I'm not yet tired and fed up with everything? Ang tagal na, hindi pa rin ako napapagod. Ano bang meron na wala ako ngayon? Na hindi ko magawa? ;[

But I fell lazy on everything, sometimes I thought to give up my studies, my life. Haha:D ang babaw! Wala eh. Feeling ko I'M ALL ALONE! But I know God is just there with me.

Nanghihina ako ngayon, I don't know the reason. Not person, not things, I don't know what! Basta all I want is STRENGTH. Yun lang! Feeling ko lagi na lang humihina yung loob ko. Please, God give me enough strength..

DENIAL STAGE parin siguro ako!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIE!

Dreaming of you!

2007-07-18T16:00:00.000-07:00

As I woke up this morning, I really can't help myself but to laugh like an insane lass. Why? Because I dreamt of someone whom for the first time I see him in my dreams. It's a weird one though, but then I find it super funny, kilig and sweet dream talaga. Haha:D

Setting:
Classroom

Characters:
Classmates from 4th Year High School
Current Classmates
Barbie (codename kay crush)

Story:

Inside the classroom..

Sci: *blush* *kilig* waaah! Asa labas si Barbie. :)

The prof entered the classroom..

Professor: *pointing and looking at Barbie* Ikaw, bakit ngayon ka lang pumasok sa klase ko?

Barbie: Eh kasi po Miss kinulam ako ng Bading eh.

*class laughs*

*Sci raises her hand and say..*

Sci: Miss, ako yung kabit niya! *giggles*

Class: Haha:D number two? :) Yiiii..

Sci: *blushes*

....End of the dream...

That's it. That's how weird it is. Haha:D having a dream with him last night made me laugh talaga! I started laughing as I go out my room and tell this dream with our helper. She can't help herself too but to laugh and feel kilig. Awww!

It's been a week na rin since the last time I saw Barbie. Well, ganoon talaga pag tamad pumasok. Haha:D

****

My pc is not working. I can't open it. Argggh!! Sana maayos na agad! Hayss!

Give it to me.

2007-07-16T16:00:00.000-07:00

Okay then, I'm here sitting in this grumpy chair and searching for any thoughts that could possibly say. Whew! Lalim nun ah? Gets mo? Ako hindi ko alam! Weh? Crap.

Anyway, I miss blogging :) I know that this is not a cool blog though, but then wala lang. Kunek? So there. I'm here in library with Bevs, surfing and decided to blog anything (as in anything). I don't wanna go home yet even though we had lots of assignment to do. Haha:D well that's life :)

I miss everything. But I know everything happens for a reason. Darn! I'm being so dramatic again. Haha:D

* I'm starting to live my life again. What I mean is, I'm picking up the broken pieces of me and I could say that I'm getting better now -- hopefully :)

* What I love most now is bumming around with my friends..ü Yipeee! How cool is that? :D

* I"m getting more blooming as the dys pass by (magrereact ka? Blog ko toh! HahaXD)

* I'm loving Ronald McDonalds na kaya! HahaXD we have pictures and I definitely love it :) Next time, I'll be with Jollibee naman (if ever topakin ng hyperness) Weee. Love it :)

* There are cutie froshies this sem. Hmm, cool. Lol. But I crush "soulmate" more. Haha:D who's he? Secret. Don't ask me cos I won't tell. As if you care di ba? Just kidding.

* I'm loving Gwen Stefani's "Sweet Escape" and "4 in the morning". Rar! I love the beat.

* I love to dance pero hindi ako nag-ppractice. Why oh why? I don't have time sweetie :) I think, I'm starting to love ballrooom dancing.

* I crush "Chloe" of 26K Ladies of Deal or No deal. Haha:D She's so pretty kaya! Pwedeng pang-model. Haha:D

* My favorite word for this season are "love it" and "that's hot". Haha:D

* I'll be busy cos we're going to shoot for the documentary and short film. Ugh! The pressure thing is, we need to achieve the CMS (which is equivalent to 1). Argggh! We're just amatuer baby! Hayss! Well, Goodluck to us.

* Btw, I updated my multiply account. And der's a random pictured posted. Yipee! Love it or love it? Choose. :)

* Life is full of choices, that is according to our Economics Professor and that's true :)

* Happiness is an on-going process, and that's according to Joe D' Mango naman! HahaXD

* It's all in the mind. Ukol naman kay Bevs yan! HahaXD

That's all for now :) Updates soon pag di na busy! Mwuaaah! Thanks for dropping by people :)

UPDATES.

2007-07-14T19:42:00.000-07:00

Hey! More updates soon.. Just busy.

Who cares anyway? :P

Ciao!

Mwuah!

P.S.
I wanna see Mcdo! Who's he? McDonalds. Haha:D

weeee.

2007-06-26T18:30:00.000-07:00

"I can feel the pressure, it's getting closer now.."
-Pressure, Paramore

I miss you, them.

2007-06-15T20:00:00.000-07:00

I'll be busy for this semester cos we have lots of things to accomplish. We'll do a short film, documentaries and some photo exhibit. Whew! How cool isn't? Haha. I'm planning to join the Angelicum News but I don't think if I could make it up next week for the meeting cos I have something to do that particular day. So it's a matter of sacrifices. Hehe. I'm starting to like my prof in Introduction to Communication same as in Audio Visual Electronic Media cos he has so many plans for our subject and in this young years of us he'll let us to be exposed in the media and electronic world. Yey! I love it :)

Yesterday I was planning not to attend my Theo3 (Ecclesiology) class cos to be honest I so so find it boring talaga but everything's changed. So there, I entered that class late for about a minute (not bad at all) and guess what? The Prof is so adorable. Hahaha:D hmm, like that?ü well, you need to. Haha:D "OMG Ghert, gwapo niya! :)," I whispered. "Sira ka talaga.." Ghert whispered. Then turn my head at the back to give Bevs a very naughty look. Hahaha:D Well anyway, he's a Brother and a part of O.P so they are Single and not available Hahaha:D parang may balak ako noh? Hell no! I just find him adorable lang talaga and nice at the same time. I think I'll enjoy his class although it's boring and I'll try to attend on his class wihtout any absences.. Hahaha:D but I think that would be impossible for me to do. Why? Secret. Lol.

Lately, I find myself quite sensitive. I don't know why, I just noticed myself having this "teary-eye" whenever I watched some shows na hindi naman talaga nakakaiyak! Haha:D sayang nga, kasi Dog of Flanders had ended this day. Hays! I'm so touched with that kiddie show talaga! Swear. "Sci, namimiss mo ba siya??", Mercy asked. "Of course I do.", I said and looked down slowly. Ganun talaga. I think everyone has moved on. Haha. Kunek? :P well, moving on. I'm excited for next week. Wanna know why? Wala lang. Haha.

I miss lots of people. I haven't seen some of my college friends yet since the classes started and I really don't know when will I see them again :)

I think I'll be able to see again my favorite classmates when I was in 1st year level :) Yey! That would be nice and fun! Wheww! And I'm so much excited for that :)

persdae.

2007-06-13T19:20:00.000-07:00

I'm an early bird today cos it's my first day in school. Last night, I was very excited to fix my things for school and of course I'm very much excited to see my college friends and the transferees and freshmen people. Haha.

The first day is great cos as I attended my first subject *Introduction to Communication* (they said it's one of my major subject, well sorry I don't know. Haha) I saw a new prof and my first impression to him is kind of strict but surely you can approach easily. I know I'll learn a lot to him as the semester goes (wish us luck :P) :) Oh by the way, his name is Mr. Jonah Lim. What's up with the name? Haha:D kidding aside, we did some activities for us to know more better our classmates. (Oh wait, my classmates last sem, still my classmates *some of them pala*). In our Intrapersonal Communication activity, I can say that I'm almost in the point of crying. I'm just holding it back. Haha. I never thought that it would be like that. Tsk. Well, if you would like to know what's the reason behind that holding back thing, I won't tell. Hahaha:D cos we made a promise inside our room that all the things we shared inside the classroom won't go outside of it.

Second subject, Effective Technical Writing. Oh well, our prof is still Ms. De Leon. Haha:D I'm starting to like her cos she's approchable but strict in a way that it can cause a good performance on you :) Anyway, I was elected as a Vice-President in her subject. Hahaha. Third subject, Economics. Our prof is Miss Theresa, well as I can say to her on our first meeting she's smart and you can approach her too. Yun lang pansin ko and I can learn a lot of things through her.

So goodluck to me in this school year kahit na I'm starting to get lazy to attend my Theo subject tomorrow. Lol. And I heard that the froshie guys are cuties. Haha. Love it. Lol.

********

"I can be your girl forever, if you want to"

P.S. I bought the June issue of Candy mag and I love the contents of it. Hahaha:D related ako sa isang article nila :) and I'm proud to say that the Candy Cover girl for this month is an Alumni of my recent school :) Who is she? Grab your candy mag in all leading bookstores nationwide to find out who is she. Hahaha:D

Sandali lang.

2007-06-09T14:00:00.000-07:00

So here we go again. Lol. This past few days I'm starting to be confused with everything. Lots of things running on my mind and it starts to freak me out. Tsk. I know that most of my friends are getting so infuriated at me cos I always dredged up all those bitterness or whatever. I just can't help it --- can't help myself either. I started to think over these things and I don't know if I'm realizing all of them anyhow or what. I'm being more stubborn than before and being too mischief, too.

Well, maybe they are right that the problem is on me. Honestly, I want to breakaway from all these worries, pain, agony -- everything. But I really don't know how to start. "Hindi sa hindi mo matulungan ang sarili mo, ayaw mo lang tulungan talaga.." Kate said. Well, I think she's right

I just don't want to help myself at all..

Why I can't just stop expecting from everything? That these and that will be back to its normal mode? Why I can't just accept that "Hey, this is the reality of life. Wake up!" Err. Why I just kept on nagging the truth? Tsk. I see myself as a loser here, well it is because I allow myself to be like that.

"Why I can't recognize the difference between the reality and dreams?"

Am I being a paranoid or I am just? :(

I want to breakaway..

*******

I am supposed to be off at Baywalk this day with some of my high school friends but then unfortunately it's cancelled and I don't know kung mai-uurong yun or what. Actually, I and Bry planned it originally so since there's some unexpected things happened, then it's cancelled. How bad! I'm so excited to go there cos I'm just excited. Hahaha:D I wanna see how beautiful the sunset is, kaso wala hindi ko makikita! Hahaha:D well, next timie na lang talaga! :)

I'm kind of excited to go back to school this Wednesday cos I'll be able to see again my friends and to be at Elem Ground. Haha. It looks like that that is important to me, well not really ;) I just want to be there and to take some break. Hehe.

*******

Sci: Hey Ghert, guess what I saw? Haha. I saw Paeng, I know it's him. Hehehe. Do you remember him? Our classmate in PolSci? Oh c'mon. Haha. Well, as you read it "english" toh. Hahaha:D

Ghert: Nyahahaha.

Haha. Nonsense conversation but hey it made me smile kaya.ü I don't know why, I don't have any crush to him naman na eh, natuwa lang ako when I saw him. Haha:D maybe I just miss his hair haha:D Yes, I ♥ his hair and I ♥ his bags too. :) Just the hair and bag. Lol.

*******

I ♥ Mickey and Gee-ann from PBB 2 :) They're so cool and funny and they made me smile talaga and kilig at the same time. Lol. I ♥ them to tidbits. Haha:D let's support them! Weee. I'm hating Bruce and Robert somehow, it's not that I'm judging them or what masasabi ko lang is "Boys will be boys" talaga! Tsk. Basta. Hehehe.

*******

I always fool myself that I'm over him, that I don't wnat to see him and I really hate him. But still in the end, I'm always trapped with my heart's deepest desire: "Loving him over and over again, no matter how he hurt me and no matter how I suffer"

bakit ba kasi ayoko magpa-awat? :P

2007-06-06T12:35:00.000-07:00

Siguro kung totoo lang talaga na maraming namamatay sa "maling akala", isa na siguro ako sa mga namatay na iyon. Hehehe. I'm not feeling well this past days. I feel like I'm in a chaos. I thought I'm strong, but then the truth is, I'M NOT. I can't really help myself this time. I don't know why. I don't know why I'm losing my faith this time, I don't know why I'm stubbornly expecting things will be back its normal mode, I don't know why I can't make myself happy for real, I don't know why I cant let go of the things that I should let go for good. I really don't know. I still have lots of questions to ask. But you know what I really wanna do this time in my life? I just want to disappear -- for now. And then I'll be back if I proved to myself that I'm already healed and whatsoever. I want to reflect, but how will I start? I don't know where will I start and how anyway. I'm being emo again, but hey this is what I really feel. Haha.

ALL I WANT IS TO BE HAPPY

******

"Sometimes we can't let go of hurt because it's a constant reminder of one great love story we never expected to come to an end.."

Well, what can I say? I miss them :)

2007-06-05T15:00:00.000-07:00

MAY 30, 2007

Angel fetch me up at Angelicum [Thanks for patiently waiting me, I know your starving but thanks a lot :)]. We went at Sm Fairview to meet up some of our high school friends. So there, Mau, Elvis, Don, Vincent, Bry, Grace, Yna, Kate, Jessica, Karen, Tin came first there and we [Gela and I] was late for almost an hour. Haha:D well, I admit that it was my fault anyway :) After then, we go to Heleb's crib to visit him first and later goof around. While we're on our way, I bonded with the rest of my guy friends. Well, isn't obvious that I miss them a lot (of course I miss the girlfriends too)? Heck, they totally grown-up (physically). Hahaha:D and they kept on teasing me cos I'm still small and they are much taller than me (super). Lol. Shut up! as I said to them. Hahaha:D well, who would've thought that I'm gong to goof around again with them rather than my girlfriends who was there too right? Hehe. Well, as we walked to Heleb's crib I looked like I'm a Princess cos they're guarding me. Haha:D love it :) I miss joking around with them. At that time I was really starving and dehydrated at the same time that really makes me go insane and out of my mind. Haha:D I shared some silly jokes and fortunately they laugh at it though it's full of crap anyway :P well, thanks for the laugh guys! Thanks to Vincent who keeps his eye on me. Hahaha:D I miss you a lot Boiplen (though Bry accused you as a mistress of mine, well we both know that's not true right? We're really good friends ever since :)) Thanks to Don and Bry for wearing the same color of shirt and by that it reminds me of someone and thanks too for keeping an eye too to me :) As we were at Heleb's crib, they watched "Manay Po" I didn't watch it anyway [kasi, wala lang. hehehe:P] and then we ate the merienda and I'm so sorry for being the first one who eat. Hehehe:P i'm just pretty much hungry at that time :) and then picture picture :) after then, we went home na rin and some of them went to Sm again to goof around. Hehe:P I did not join them na :) Basta I'm super happy at that time cos I miss them a lot and I miss the laughs. It'll took for some time for us to be with them again. We have different schedules na rin kasi kaya ayun :(

JUNE 01, 2007

*Phone rings*
Sci: Hello.. *medyo antok-antok pa*

Gergene: Pwede po kay Cynel?

Sci: Sino toh?

Gergene: Si Gergene po.

Sci: Gergene? *confused*.. Gergene Neypes?

Gergene: Opo.

Sci: Oh bakit? :)

Gergene: Punta ka dito kila Sanchai, ngayon na .. Wala akong kasama dito eh.

Sci: Oh akala ko ba hindi na tuloy?

Gergene: Hehehe. Basta punta ka na lang dito, pupunta rin sila Sales tska si Vincent. Alis ka na ngayon huh? :p

Sci: Oh sige. Antayin niyo na lang ako. Handa na kayo ng pagkain. Hahaha:D

Gergene: Ok :)

**end of talk**

So ayun. I bonded with some of the lunchmates at that time. I raid Sanchai's kitchen cos I'm hungry again even though I ate lunch before I leave the house :P picture-picture din. Hehehe:P I really enjoy that day not only because of the food, but the stories and laughs that we shared. Hahaha:D kahit na kulang oks lang naging masaya naman eh :) Mwuaah!

o0o0o0o

I went to School yesterday for the enrollment. So ayun, enrolled na ako! Hahaha:D so? Wala lang :) I kinda don't like the schedule of mine. Walang time for lamyerda. Hahaha:D I miss school :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRED
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLEN

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2007-05-28T14:00:00.000-07:00

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inexplicable

2007-05-26T19:00:00.001-07:00

There are things that aren't easy to forget. No matter how much you tried to forget so, still you can't easily can. Maybe the reason of it is that the wounds are too deep and it really takes a time for it to be healed.

Being bitter by your past doesn't really mean that you pity yourself so much or you're such a big damn loser or whatever. It just only means that you just allow the pain of your unpleasant or embarassing things from your past to hurt you --- for now. And all you wanna do is to be tired of it that maybe (just maybe) sooner you will be..

Sometimes no matter how much you want to love, care for that person you just can't really show it off easily cos you feel daunt by the thought of it. Sometimes you want the feelings to end but still there's a part of you that you don't want to lose a grip on it anyhow. You fool yourself by pretending that you don't care or love that person anymore but deep inside you really really do.

At this moment of time, all I think about is him. Sometimes, I really really wanna say how much I love him, how much I care for him, how much I miss him, but I can't. For the reason that I'm afraid to tell it to him. Dreading that he might reject it, won't say "I love you too", or worst -- dont' give any damn about it. But I do hope he knows how much I do those things.

If I could just speak it up to him, I don't know what will gonna happen. I don't like others even though how much I tried to like others, but I still can't cos he's all that I want. If he'll just know it, will he still push me away to others?

-xXxXx-

Oh by the way, Miss Raya tagged me. Awww. Thanks for remembering me :) Haha.ü

Here's the 411:

1. Write about how much addicted you are towards something.
2. Don't forget to include the percentage of 'addictedness' towards that thing.
3. All with one condition, the total of percentage much reach 100%.
4. You MUST tag others and continue tagging but please don't forget to explain the rules and please notify that person so that they know that they had been tagged.

I am 2% addicted to coffee. Yay! I'm not that really a coffee lover anyway , isn't obvious? Boo-hoo! :) But I love the taste of Cappuccinno.ü

I am 56% addicted to the net. Wow. So how was it anyway? Hehe. Well, I love surfing the net, checking my friends profile, leaving them some hilarious comments and having a little learnings about htmls and the likes :)

I am 16% addicted to magazines. Yes yes, I got an every month issue of CANDY. I love it. ^__^

I am 20% addicted to bags. Hahaha. I love bags but I'm afraid borrowing my Mom's bag cos there's an incident that her favorite bag was snatched cos I used it. Haha:D My bad ^__^

I am 6% addicted to Detective Conan. I love the tactics and the skills of Conan as a detective. And I love how he protects Ran in his little own ways :P
_____________
Total: 100%

Now I'm tagging whoever wants to answer it :)

Wooott.

2007-05-18T13:06:00.000-07:00

I'm here again, sitting on my chair, typing and letting my thoughts out. Lol. So there, nothing much happend to me except of being down with so much pain and hurt. Yes, as on my previous entry I'm in so much stress of love and pain. Haha:D well, I'm starting to live with it as long as I can and in one way or another I'm getting used to it and maybe, just maybe sooner or later I'll be fed up with this and boom it'll gone. :) And oh, I'm being eccentric this past days and I find it to myself a kind of pesky. Hehe.

There are so much things to be happy about, I realized that if I let that "mourning mode" eat me, I'll be a loser forever. I'm still hurting but not as the same before that I wanna die cos of so much pain and those expectations and wishes that will never meet. That's life, you just have to know how to live with it. Life goes on. I still have FRIENDS, FAMILY, and GOD who'll always be there for me. As of now, I'm enjoying what relationship I have with him --- commited or not commited. If this is what God's want for me, for him -- for us, then let it be.

But I can't stop myself dreading for pain and hurting once again, but I'm still finding a way to not let that dreadful pain hit me again. Before, when I have this pain I always pray that "God, can you give me someone whom I can fall again with?" but now I don't want it to happen. Hehehe. I just want the wounds to be heal and not to find someone again and let it scratch and bleed once more. So there. I can say that I'm still inlove with him but I do let myself to use my brain this time not the heart. It's hard to explain why I say this. Basta yun na yun. As long as I can, I'm trying not to irk him or anyone and have this unflinching attitude.

This time, I'm believing with the "Serendipity". Hehe.

-xXxXx-

Supposed to be this day I'm off with Jeka, Amie, Aleli, Gab and Red but unfortunately it's postponed. Jecca had this Volleyball game so she decided to postponed the drinking session and Red's not feeling well. So that's it. I'm killing my time again. Haha:D I made Ghert and Domz a friendster layout, the first one I did I think Ghert didn't like it cos she wants to occupy the whole page which I didn't do. So I made a new one again :) I'm starting to get pissed by this PC cos it really works so so so slow. I don't know what's the problem on the Internet Connection of it. How I wish my mom would decide to sign up for the Smart Bro or any broadbands connection. Hehe;P how I wish. Sana lang talaga maisipan niya iyon :)

Anyway, belated Happy Mother's day to every Moms out there ^___^.

Tah-tuh.

2007-05-07T18:00:00.000-07:00

"May mga bagay na ayaw kong isipin pero di ko naman kayang kalimutan. Bagay na ayaw kong ituloy pero takot akong wakasan.. Yun bang ayaw kong umasa pero gusto ko pa ring maghintay...

Why do I need to feel this thing? Why I can't let go of my feelings? Why I can't just give it up? Why it is so hard for me to move on? Why I continuously feel this feeling which I supposed to stop and forget at all for good? Why I can't be happy? Why I still continue wanting for something which in reality I will never ever have again? Why I'm afraid of what will gonna happen? Why I'm afraid of taking risks? Why I can't go out with my comfort zone? Why I'm not letting myself to grow? Why I let things hurt me? Why do I still need to think of everything which I supposed not to? Why I'm still crying wherein I don't have any tears to cry on? Why I'm still expecting things will be back to normal? Why I'm letting this feeling to hurt me? Why I'm allowing myself be in a deep hurt that will lead to some depression? Why I'm not getting tired of crying? Why I'm still believing in the lies of life? Why I can't just live my life on its normal mode? Why do I need to ignore the pain and pretend that I'm happy and pretty alright? Why is it it's getting too hard and hurts more? Why I can't just be in silence forever?

Why I'm still believing in LOVE?

I want to be happy, happy for real.. I want to get tired of everything. I want this feeling to fade, I want it to die.. I can't help it.. I want to get over it. I want to move on. I want to pick up the pieces of me by myself, but how will I? I can't really help myself this time. I'm drowning with this pain, not just pain --- an AGONY per say.

I really wanted to get over it. God please do help me. Please? T.T

my achy breaky heart :)

2007-05-03T19:30:00.000-07:00

Err! My heart is still ACHING and I'm hating it over and over again :'( I don't know if I can get over it. Hays! I can never be this way -- forever! I should take some time to mourn and let the wounds to be heal. Arggghh!

-xXxXx-

"Ayaw mo ng umasa pero gusto mo pa din maghintay.."

scream it sweetie.

2007-04-28T21:00:00.000-07:00

I want to TRAVEL. I'm serious! I want to travel around the world. I guess if I have so much money or if I'm rich, I could go wherever I want. I want to breathe, to think some things, to meet new people, new culture, new thoughts, new inspiration, etc. Haha:D I loved to travel but unfortunately, I don't have enough money to support that, or should I say "we" don't have enough money. Well, that's life. Maybe if i'll strive hard to my study and finish it, and pursue a career that I wanted to be, well maybe, just maybe I could do what I really wanted :) Goodluck to me.ü

I miss my friends (lahat sila ^^,) I miss bumming around with them. I wanna see Bry and Yna. Haha;D why oh why? Well, I miss goofing around with them, and telling some dramas. Tee-hee! Ack! Haha:D sana matuloy ang date nating tatlo. I miss HAWHAW cos we're missing to go shopping! Stress-free yun pare. :)

Grrrr! My angsty side are coming out again. Haha;D I'm loving to rock out again! Yeah, rock and roll. Haha:D trip? Ewan. I feel light and happy whenever I sing and scream with it. Whoa! Frustrated vox. Haha;D get lost. Yeah yeah yeah, whatever :)

Guess what? I'm smiling again ^_____^ can't you see? Can't you feel it? See it. Feel it. LOLXD Maybe because of what God did last night. Owell, it's a sad one (to think of) but then again made me light and made me breathe again :) thanks for that person cos you let me know what I really wanna hear. Thank you so much! You know who you are already. ^__^

Off to Manila tomorrow! Muah!

-xXxXx-

"Masasabi mong masaya ka kapag kuntento ka na sa lahat..."
-Angel (friend of mine)

experiences to lesson :)

2007-04-27T15:00:00.000-07:00

Last year (2006) November, a week before my birthday someone's call me over the phone and guess what he said? He says "sorry" to me for the bad things that he'd done to me before. And hearing that sorry and the voice too, made me feel great cos I didn't expect for him to call me and say sorry. Well, that guy became a part of my life and I thanked him a lot cos he made me a better person right now. After all the pain, lies, infidelities, etc. He had this guts to feel sorry and explain everything to me, and as my part I forgive him whole-heartedly :) Maybe not because of the things (most of them are bad anyway :P) that he'd done to me, I won't be strong as I am right now.. Honestly, with that experience I kinda know now how to deal with some petty things and made me not to give up on it easily. And I only realized it a while ago that I should thank him for that --- for everything. :)

Sometimes, people who treat us bad and hurt us so much are sometimes who'll make us a better person. And we only realized it when we already over with it and learn so much from it. We should thank them for treating us that way cos of that they let us grow :) and the experiences that we had with them, teaches us a lesson :) And most of all, we should thank God for letting us meet those person and took them in our lives cos we know that God has a better plan for us :)

-xXxXx-

"GOD's will is better than our own ways, and GOD's plan is better than our own dreams.."

Why?

2007-04-26T13:35:00.000-07:00

It's my Lola's Birthday today! Yey! Happy Birthday Nanay! We misses you so much and we love you! :) Mwuah! Wish you, wish you, wsh you more life to come and we kow that you're still counting on it. Awww. :)

So there, yesterday night I was texting with Bry and he told me he wants to go in a relaxing place and he don't know if he wants with a companion or none. Since, I want to go in a relaxing place too, to think over some situations that happened, I told him that I wanted to go with him (If he wanted too). He wanted to go at Baywalk cos of the ambiance (ata? :P), and of course the oceanary place. Tsk, it seems like he wants to have some emotional scene there. Haha:D just kidding. Kidding aside, I wanted to go there too but I don't know how will I get there. Haha:D I prefer him to go to EcoPark or in Wildlife since it's a nearby place than going over to Manila right? Well, whatever decision he wants, wala na ako doon. Haha:D I gave him an option to go to Intramuros. He wanted to go there too but again, HE DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET THERE. Tee-hee dude! Haha;D So we decided to go there and I asked him if we could go with Yna since we both misses that angsty-innocent girl. LOL XD he then said YES. Yipee! I'm excited to be with them again and have some serious talk! Wow, SERIOUS talk :) enough of that serious talk anyway.

I'm having fun yesterday night texting with some of my high school pals. It was like a reunion texting galore to us cos "Hey, they're too active sending love quotes.. and doing some GMs :)" Speaking of quotes, all of those are meant for me. Haha;D I don't know if they did it as a sadya one or wala lang :) Well, I love the scar-about quotes. Haha;D it says that "The bigger of the scar you had in your heart, the more TANGA you are!". Boom! Hahaha:D it's a funny one though :) they don't mean anything to it anyway.ü

-xXxXx-

"Why"

Avril Lavigne

Why, do you always do this to me?

Why, couldn't you just see through me?

How come, you act like this

Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe

I was the only one to fall?

I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away

I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way

I need you,

I need you

More and more each day

It's not supposed to hurt this way

I need you, I need you,

I need you

Tell me, are you and me still together?

Tell me, do you think we could last forever?

Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying

Let's play, a different game than what we're playing

Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?

I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away

I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

Have you ever felt of waking up everyday and have this feeling of pain cos of the things that happens ini your past or what? Well, if you do, I felt that too. Haha;D wala lang. Natanong lang. Hehe:P Ack! There's a lot of questions are bugging me. But most of those questions start with the word "WHY?". Why anyway? Geee! I know that my questions will be answered by the right time, right moment, and right reason. Oh well, I hope it will. Manalig ka lang Sci. Things will be better. Just have faith to God. Just don't rush things out. Take it nice and slow baby! :D

There's something that get on my nerve. Hehe:P just let me be this way -- for now folks. Haha:D tah-tuh.

Wish

2007-04-25T00:58:00.000-07:00

Be careful on what you wish for.. Ack! That's what the topic for yesterday! Wish, wish, wish! It's all about wish! Now it came true, what's next? Aww. Just be careful on the things you might wish for, cos you'll never know what's gonna happen if that wish came true. Think over it. Be contented, try to be contented.. :)

xXxXx

I'm still here, alive. Still loving and caring in silence. Expecting for some things to happen. Yeah, I know it's not easy but I'm trying. I know I'll get over it but the question is when? It hurts. It really hurts. I'm still here, caring for you, waiting for you.. I know I deserve some explanations for the things that happened already. This is the verdict of reality.

xXxXx

Smiling is better than explaining why you're sad...

I can't help it.

2007-04-23T16:35:00.000-07:00

I don't know how will I start this entry. How will I let my feelings out. I'm in so much hurt and pain right now, I don't know if I can still bear and be over it. I know it's the same old song but once you feel this feeling, you'll say to yourself that "Wow, it felt like a first time.."

You love someone so much and you'll see that someone as an everything to you. The reason why you exist and the reason of starting your day. It feels so great experiencing the "falling in love" thingy, but then it feels so bad having a feeling of pain and hatred cos of falling in love.

It's not that easy to let go of your feelings to someone and pretending that you can let it go because it's killing you somehow. The sad thing about love is that it's when you happen to know that there's just no hope for you being together yet you still pray to make it work.. It's when your mind says let go but your heart says hold on. It's when you dream of that person almost every night only to wake up in the morning with tears in your eyes. And most of all its when no matter how you try to forget that person you just can't, cos of the fact that you love that person and you just don't know why..

Call me bitter or what, I don't care cos it's true. I hate myself right now cos I hurt again someone I love, someone who means a lot to me. If he'll just know how much I love him and how sorry am I for hurting him.. If he gets to read this, please don't be mad at me. I love you so much! I'm sorry for everything.. Oh God, please do help me to get over this pain. I know you had a reason why you allow this thing to happen. Please, give me so much strength to face this. help me to be brave enough. And let him know how much I love and appreciate him for coming into my life :(

sweet escape

2007-04-20T13:54:00.000-07:00

"If you're not afraid Of what love brings, then endings are beginnings Of beautiful things. Its a chance you'll take, It's a chance you'll win. If someone's gonna find you, First you gotta let them in Coz love begins with one hello ..The hardest part is over, Now its easy letting go, One hello is how it starts, You might win it all or lose your heart.."-One hello, Randy Crawford

A while ago, I listened to Joe D' Mango's show in Wave 89.1 which is Love Notes. Joe said that it takes two for a relationship to work. He also said that "not all unconditional love is supposed to be meant like forever. The person who experience the unconditional love might get tired and burned out also cos of the pain that he feel and the realization of being taken for granted."

People get sick and tired of the things that he/she always experience. Even though he/she loves a person so much that if he/she thinks that the love that he/she had for that person causing him/her so much pain and being taken for granted, sooner or later that person might get tired of everything and will realized that he/she don't deserve that kind of treatment and love.

The point here is, be thankful that God gives you someone who'll love you. Even if you don't love that person, you should tell that person about your feelings. Be true to him/her though it really hurts. As the maxim goes, Reality Bites." If you're a someone who experience the unconditional love, don't think that love doesn't love you at all, it's just that it lets you know that you deserve someone better. And if the two of you love each other but then one leaves, don't be bitter about it, cos love has its own season, time and reason for coming and going. :)

God only knows who you deserve and who will be deserving of you. Just put a smile on your face always. The ending is always a beginning.

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I love Gwen Stefani's new song "Sweet escape" cos it makes me groove when I always hear it :) Anyway, I and Red met up yesterday (April 19). He accompanied me at School to check my grades, but suddenly Milet told me that the grades is on the process of whatever it is and I can see them by next week. So okay. :) after there, we went at Sm north to mall around and we planned to watch a movie, but when we saw how much the movie is we didn't watch any movie there. Haha:D ginto masayado ang presyo sweetie :p I'm not kidding :) kung alam ko lang. Hehe:P but I enjoy being with him, hope he does too. So there, Silent Sanctuary had this Mall tour at Sm, so we accidentally watched it :p and their front act is Itchyworm whom I always like and love. Haha:D they are cool. I love their songs :) Ghert and his boyfriend (Domz) was there too at the mall, so we met up and talk for a while then separate ways again :p

I and Red had this long walk again that made my feet aches (not actually) cos we're going to print up our pics. Ay, ako lang pala ang may gusto. Haha:D So there. I miss him already kahit na naiinis ako sakanya minsan at siya ganoon din sa akin. Hehehe:P I love you my love. Mwuaah!

I'm sleepy folks. I wanna have some rest and sleep too :( but I can't. Anyway, got to go. I'm going to do something. Tah-tuh ^__^

it's so nice to loved and be loved and be happy :)

2007-04-18T15:40:00.000-07:00

Darn! The weather this past days and today is darn hot! Ack! I hate it. I can't stand the heat baby! I wanna go somewhere where I can rest and feel chill at the same time. How I wish it'll happen. Anyway, yesterday wa Ninya's celebration of her late (super-late) birthday! Haha:D we are just few friends of her there including especially the Chi-Chi Fam and Lunchmates! Great! I super duper miss the close friend of mine! Waaahh! I went there with Red, I just want them to meet that man. Hehe:P it was first time for me to introduce a guy of mine to them (that set of friends) though they always tease me cos I have this super duper dami boys (daw?) before! Before yun ok? Haha:D I changed! :)

So there, before I and Red went to Ninya's house, we went for a while at Sm to buy some mags and of course ang frustrate-frustration ko, FLIPFLOPS. Haha:D I just love to buy that slipper! Weee! I love the color. It's brown ^___^ Banana Peel is affordable than Havaianas! Wow! Edorsement mode :)

I had fun yesterday cos I was able to meet my long time no see close friends of mine. We talk some chikas. Haha:D we had fun makin out of joke to Pets. Weee! Don't worry sweetie, we love you of course, we're just makin fun out of you! :P

After then, I and Red went to Mcdo. Nagugutom ulit ako eh! :) and then make somoe kwentuhan. Ayun. After there, we had this long night walks. Wow! I love that moment. Weeeeee! I miss him so much! :) Anyway, I love my outfit yesterday. Hehehe:P so there..

I'm happy yesterday. Super happy :) hindi lang siya halata. Hahaha;D Hay! I love the people around me. I love him. I love my friends. I love God. I love my family. I love you more guys :P

Ack! I think I'm having this cough! :( I don't want to have this. I'ts kind of annoying anyway. :(

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unpredictable.

2007-04-16T14:36:00.000-07:00

I'm being so unpredictable this past few days. And I don't know too the reasons why! Well, maybe let's just be that way! Ack! I don't wanna be sad anymore nor being depressed. I'm having this depress-depressan factor lately. Hahaha:D weird! Well, feel ko lang yun. I'm happy and I'm happy. Are you happy with it too ba? Great! Apir! Lols.ü I'm startin to be out of my mind again! Argggh! Wala lang. Unpredictable din ang mga nangyayari ngayon! Maybe kulang lang sa lambing! Hahaha:D pansinin mo ako babe! Haha:D just kidding ;p

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Last Friday (April 13) Red and Yen went here at the house, just to visit me! Weh? Haha:D and I'm having fun seeing them especially Red! Yey! I miss him already. Hope he misses me too! Yikes! Haha:D I love him. And I'm loving hm more each day! Tee-heee! Lols.ü

Let's keep on falling in love people. Let's keep on living the life that God gave us. Let's just be thankful that God let this things happen cos we know that He has its own reasons for letting this things happen! Yey! I love God more than He ever know! I am so thankful having my love in my life, my family, friends and things that I have and enjoying right now! He rocks! :)

Anyway, got to go. I'm off to Meralco! Haha;D tah-tuh! Mwuaaah!

-xXxXxXx-

"What makes some people dearest is not just the happiness that you feel when you meet them, but it's the pain you feel when you miss them.."

I'm back ^__^

2007-04-12T15:28:00.000-07:00

So there. I'm back :) my old account was accidentally deleted by me. Hehe:P i miss blogging. I just want to say thank you to Miss Raya for helping me out to edit the htmls and some codes to this new account of mine. Thank you so much! ^___^

Anyway, I miss blogging. It's been a while since I didn't updated my blog (the old one). Yey! So I'm back! Aren't you glad that I'm back? Just kidding. So I guess enough of this. I have lots of things to do now. Got to go! Till next time :)

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"The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right time. But also to leave the wrong thing unsaid at the most tempting moment.."